Shattered Teardrops

Protect IP; No to SOPA

2012-01-19T04:39:00.000+08:00

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Late Post but...

2012-01-02T17:08:00.001+08:00

... Chapter 22 of Keeping the Casanova has been posted at Soompi, LU and Fanfiction.net~! (Just click on the links to go straight to the newest chapter!)

Oh, and I haven't sent any PMs to the readers on Soompi because of time-constraints... Cheongmal mianhaeyo!

Anyways, I'm very happy that some people stick stuck on to reading KTC even though I rarely update nowadays. Law school is a difficult playing field so I have to keep my studies up if I don't want to get kicked out of the school I go to. *sigh*

Well, I'd still like to thank everyone for their support!

Imagine, Boys Over Flowers (Korean Version) aired in the year 2009. And it's already 2012! It's been three years since I became a SoEulmate and up until now, I remain a true blue SoEulmate~!

My only wish this year is that some PD finally recognize that Kim Bum and Kim So Eun both has stable acting backgrounds under their belt, and finally acknowledge that their chemistry is still very powerful... *cough*Prettypleasepairthemupinadrama*cough*

I'm looking forward to spending another year being a SoEulmate! I hope you guys do, too! =)

regards,
shattered teardrops

Thank you for waiting~

2011-11-01T23:40:00.002+08:00

Keeping the Casanova Chapter 21 has been updated. =)

It's posted on: LU, Fanfiction.net, Asianfanfics.com & Soompi Forums.

As for the readers over at Wattpad, my Lovelies, the newest chapter of All That Jazz has also been posted.

Special shout-out to Jet, thanks for your comments!

And though it's a bit late, Happy Halloween, everyone!

Enjoy reading~

-Dia

Hey everyone...

2011-10-22T23:19:00.001+08:00

I just got through my last exam for my finals... And sad to say, I don't think I'm off the hook for that subject yet. I'm already prepping myself to attend summer classes for that subject alone. *sigh*

On a lighter note, I would like to invited everyone to check out my account on Wattpad.

I posted a new story just this month, and it's been up for almost a few weeks. I haven't really had a chance to tell everyone about it because I didn't have a lot of free time.

Anyways, please check out "All That Jazz", it's an original short-story.

" Jasmine and Aidan have been long-time friends. Well, it was mostly Aidan being 'I'm-so-hot-and-I-want-you-Jasmine', but then Jasmine was always like 'shut-up-or-I'll-squeeze-your-balls-to-death'. See? Friends. "

Admittedly, it has been sitting in my phone for months, up until October this year when I chanced upon it and decided that it was worth editing and posting.

It's also posted on FictionPress under the pen name DaniFire.

It isn't finished yet, but hopefully, I get to finish posting all of it before this year ends. =)

Oh, and before you guys say anything about my fanfics, I decided to keep in writing Keeping the Casanova. It's one of the fanfics that really brought me a lot of friends so I don't want to disappoint them.

For whatever free time I have now, I will have to dedicate it to writing KTC and hopefully, I get to finish it. =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Yes, I've been MIA for a month

2011-10-18T03:53:00.003+08:00

... and with an acceptable reason.

I've been pretty open about how law school affected my life since I nose-dived into it without much preparation or warning. (Well, I've been warned, but I didn't think it would be too difficult. I was wrong.)

The epic failure of my grades, my barely-existent social life reduced further to mere miniscule shambles, my stressed-out appearance, my dwindling eyesight (I'm near-sighted and it's getting worse.), and my constantly saturated brain were the results of my first semester in law school.

It's not fun. It's challenging definitely, but not fun.

We're constantly bombarded with essay questions which seem more like trick questions, rather than an essay ones. MCQs are hecka confusing, and the teachers, well, some of them are exactly the devil personified.

And so, I am left confused and torn yet again.

During my first week of law school, the Dean of our College told us that being in law school required a lot of sacrifices - some small, some big - all of them essential in order to survive law school.

She said that, "Law School is a jealous mistress...". Most of the working-students were discouraged from employment if it's possible for them to study without any distraction. And this advice came with good reason: law school really is tough.

And this topic, I would like to relate with the promise I made a month ago: I promised not to abandon writing my SoEul fanfiction entitled "Keeping the Casanova". In fact, I even promised not to quit writing fanfics.

I haven't posted an update for a month already, and this has been a constant source of heartbreak. I feel that as a writer, I've failed in the most basic task of posting new chapters for my readers.

And I don't even have much time to write because most of my time is spent on reading, studying and memorizing. What's left of it, I use to rest and help out with the chores at home. (I'm the eldest daughter. Imagine the responsibility.)

As of the moment, I am in deep contemplation. (Not to mention, confused as hell.)

I have been writing for eight years now - admittedly, that is not such a short time and something that is not easy to give up.

I don't want to give up writing fanfics.
I don't want to give up writing Keeping the Casanova.
I don't want to give-up SoEul.
I don't want to give up being shattered teardrops.

...but it's as if I'm driven to the edge and forcefully pushed to choose between two things I highly value.

School or Writing?

The decision is heartbreaking. =(

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Hello!

2011-09-21T03:38:00.000+08:00

How have you guys been? It's been a while since I've posted any updates in this blog and for that, I'd like to blame law school. =)

Anyways, just a quick note to everyone. I've started writing the newest chapter for Keeping the Casanova. I will post it as soon as possible. I just don't know when but I'm working on it.

By the way, my midterms just ended. The epic failure of it sent me to a binge-eating overdrive just to comfort myself. *sigh* I've never felt so stupid in my entire life. Law school seems to drain all the positive energy in me and make my inner bitch come out.

Anyways, see you when I see you. =)

I hope you don't get tired of waiting for Keeping the Casanova! =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Yet another JunAh one-shot

2011-08-14T02:41:00.001+08:00

... Am I on a roll because of JunAh? Indeed I am!

credits to FuckYeahJunAh.tumblr.com

"Through a Fanboy's Eyes"

feat. Block B's Zico, Yong Jun Hyung, Kim Hyun Ah

Links: B2STRising Forums & 4-Minute Forums

I am very much motivated by the power of JunAh fandom. =)

-shatteredteardrops

Another JunHyung&HyunAh one-shot

2011-08-09T21:22:00.000+08:00

Dun ask.

Aside from SoEul and Daragon, they're my newest OTP.
I get my daily dose of love drug from them so I'm currently hooked. =)

Posted at B2STRising Forums & 4-Minute Forums.

And the my daily scoop of JunAh comes from:

FuckYeahJunAh

-shatteredteardrops

Newly Wed

2011-08-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

... Chapter 20 of Keeping the Casanova.

First things first!

I was supposed to post the whole update on Saturday evening after or Sunday morning if in case I wasn't able to finish all of it by the Saturday... I even planned to write a 5,000-worded chapter just to make the readers happy...

I even announced it on Twitter.

But then, a blackout happened for more than 10 hours so I wasn't able to complete the chapter on time. Hence, I only posted it now... Truthfully, I apologize. *sigh*

I know you guys have been waiting so long for this. I'm sorry...

Anyways...

REPLIES:

babypillow - I know, right? =) Thanks for the comment.

leighannechan - You're welcome! Han Byul was really meant to drop unto Ji Hoo because he's the only F4 without so much conflict to handle.. so yeah. =)

great.am - Ahahaha I'm glad your heart is now appeased!

dee:) - Yep, I'm crazy by putting twists like that. Hee.

rawrritsgracex3 - Yep, Philippines!!! XD

Ahr3um - You're welcome! haha Everything at school is... Well, I'm not even gonna touch on that topic because it's tough. haha

alasdair_vahn - Well, I'd like to call it motherly instincts. All of them are at the age of marrying, anyways, right? =)

sapphirever - To answer your question, YES, I can and will write a Rated Chapter when it all comes down to that. =)

paradoxist - Thank you for the comment! Hee. I just love how I can twist things in a story sometimes.

teresaa- - Ooohhh... I love surprising twists! Don't you? haha

Trixie9394 - The Baby is actually Ji Hoo's sister but the Mom is not Ji Hoo's Mom because baby Han Byul is the product of a scientific insemination. I hope that cleared things up!

kly8 - ahaha Yeah, I agree! XD

deep.dreamer - WHUUTTT??? Ahahaha That, I would like to see!!! But then, not really. XD

jaequeen - Ahahaha It's alright... They will have time together... soon. *winks*

isdupt15 - Yeah... I do think they should consummate their marriage in the Philippines, though! XD

xBeckkii - Uh oh... Why do you think something bad will happen???

iLuvBlackCoffee - I promise never to abandon this fic! I swear! It's going to take long to post updates but I will not stop! =) Actually, there's going to be a twist with Woo Bin's condition as well. XD Oh, and I was also planning for something to happen in the Philippines!

akemi_cho - Thank you for the comment! It's alright if you can't really comment on every chapter. I understand. =)

shar0nsaurus - The honeymoon will come in due time. I promise. Hee.

iaimeyouS2 - You're welcome and thank you for the comment! =)

batta - Ahahaha They will be intimate... when I say so! XD Patience, patience, patience...

babsy10 - Aww... It's alright. I understand is you're busy. =) Good luck with your clinical internship!

sylvia_psf - Thank you! XD

L_H_R - I PAWNED ANOTHER SILENT READER!!! YEAAAAAAAHHHHH!!! haha Thank you for reading!!! =)

Everyone, sorry for the long wait! Hope you enjoy the update! =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

The Queen and the Joker

2011-08-05T04:14:00.003+08:00

A Jun Hyung and Hyun Ah one-shot fanfic...

(just because I'm impulsive and I felt like writing it)

Link for fanfic on Soompi.

There were many reasons why I wrote this certain fanfic.

But then, I recommend you read this: FuckYeahJunAh

They're like the JunAh counterpart of the Applers. Hee.

HEY, I'm not saying I'm against the relationship of Goo Hara and Jun Hyung, I'm just saying I like the JunAh pairing more. Besides, it's waaaaaaay obvious from the way they interacted that they were attracted to each other. I dunno what happened though...

Hence, my attempt to justify their story and hence why the above one-shot was born.

So yeah, no bashing please.

That's it!

regards,

shatteredteardrops

Still Alive...

2011-07-31T00:06:00.000+08:00

...unable to write anything, but still alive.

I just got through my 4-day prelim exams (the last day being today...err... Saturday, July 30, 2011. What time is it???). That being said, this is the first day in two weeks that I was able to check this blog and actually have time to update about my current affairs.

Truth is, my sanity is barely hanging by a mere thread because law school has been literally killing me by forcefully making me go through the arduous endeavors of studying, memorizing, knowing, understanding and a whole lot of reading.

I tell you, law school is a wholly different kind of torture chamber compared to College. I'd even say College was a like... I dunno... too miniscule and lame? That being said, I regret all those moments in College when I didn't strictly practice my study habits. *sigh*

Anyways, this is just a quick post to let you guys know that I am still alive, still breathing and still with the ability to weave words... Unfortunately, not a lot of free time though...

As a compensation to all of you, I'll try to write a longer chapter for the next update for Keeping the Casanova. (You know, just to make up for the fact that it's been so long since I've posted up anything new.)

Gawd... I'm growing geekier and geekier in law school. I have no social life to speak of. I haven't been able to truly relax since the school year started, and by all means, I feel like I'm experiencing a slow and extremely torturous death...

Ugh. I just ranted.

Sorry.

-shatteredteardrops

Severing the Strings of Forever

2011-07-09T21:53:00.001+08:00

Severing the Strings of Forever

This has been sitting in my desktop for quite some time now, with a synopsis and a starting outline for the whole story. In fact, I've written the prologue already... But I've never started writing the chapters because my schedule does not permit me to do so. *sigh*

It's a lot different than the usual stories I write in the fact that it's genre is Fantasy-Romance. And nope, no vampires included in this one.

I'm feeling generous today so I'm going to post a snippet of this story.

PROLOGUE OF SEVERING THE STRINGS OF FOREVER:

OO. PROLOGUE

"Never interfere with Death..."

He watched by the sidelines as the burly and balding middle aged man brought the little girl inside his office. The man was supposed to be the little girl’s teacher – her second father – a person who’s supposed to ensure the welfare of the children under his care.

But his maligned intentions shadowed the nobility of his profession.

A frown painted itself on the unseen audience’s face, out of sheer disgust as he flicked his wrist up to look at his watch. He didn’t like handling cases like these.

Who would ever like watching a burly and balding middle-aged man corrupting the innocence of a child?

One would think that with a lithe build and a face of ethereal quality such as his, he could easily draw attention to himself without even wanting to. One could surmise that the burly, balding man could have seen him, and unwittingly stop what he was about to do because of his antagonizing presence and scrutinizing eyes.

The crucial question in the present situation is…

Can he actually be seen, in the first place?

To answer the question above, the burly and balding man continued to lead the little girl inside his office, confident that he was privy to what he was about to do. Let it be known that invisibility was the one of the many perks of being other-worldly.

Impatiently, he lifted his other hand holding a piece of paper and stared at the information written on it.

Name: Yoon Chul-Soo

Birthday: January 23, 1966

Age: 45 years old.

Death: June 22, 2011, 4:37 PM

Location: Seoul, South Korea

He looked at his watch again. It was only 4:05 PM.

He shifted his eyes back to the paper to read more details.

Cause of Death: Heart attack upon sexual climax.

He frowned, clearly displeased.

As if things weren’t as despicable enough, his assignment just had to die at the exact time he reaches the climax of his carnal pleasure at the expense of an innocent child.

He cursed inwardly and entered the room while remaining unseen. For someone inhuman as him, it was effortless to enter a room locked from the inside. Physical confines such as rooms in the Human World were never a problem to him.

What disturbed him more was the sight of the man and the little girl in front of him. The strong taking advantage of the weak.

The little girl was no more than five years old, practically still a baby. She was one of those angelic-looking ones that had a heart-shaped face, blessed with wide, doe-eyes framed beautifully by thick and cursive lashes. No wonder the lecherous teacher had taken a liking to her.

She was wearing a pink little dress with ruffles and laces – a dress fit for a feminine little princess – a dress that ultimately has to be taken off in order for the burly, balding man to complete his sinister plans.

A disgusted frown continued to envelope the unseen audience’s facial features as the man slowly lifted the girl to his lap and began undoing the buttons of the little girl’s dress. All the while, the little girl was busy playing with her porcelain doll, completely unaware of what was about to happen to her.

For the nth time, he looked at his watch again. The time was 4:13.

“Shit.” He cursed inwardly but continued to stand by the sidelines and watch as the man’s life string approached its end. He was tapping his feet, growing impatient by the minute.

By then, the man had already unbuttoned all of the buttons on the girl’s dress and was beginning to lower it down from her frail shoulders. The sight was nothing short of despicable. He tried his best to fake nonchalance and continued standing by the sidelines without interfering.

“My little Helena… We’re going to play a little game, shall we?” The burly, balding man chanted in a childlike tone with a sinister sneer on his aged face.

The little girl looked up to him, her big brown orbs wide with inquiry, confusion and finally, fear… Fear of the unknown… Fear of what was about to come… Or maybe, somehow, her instinct for self-preservation kicked in subconsciously inside her young mind.

“Teacher Yoon… I-I want to go home…” She inquired, her eyes filled with fear.

Whatever it was that lit alarm on the little girl’s brown orbs, the unseen entity knew that he could not let things happen as fate dictated them.

With a cringe on his face, and knowing full well that he was going to regret what he was about to do, the unseen entity stepped forward towards the burly, balding man’s direction.

A touch. That was all it took for him to sever the man’s life string.

In a matter of minutes, the burly, balding man’s grip on the little girl had loosened as his heart erratically maneuvered itself towards his death. The man clutched his chest in pain as the last few seconds of his life passed by in a blur – until on the last second – it was then that he saw the ethereal face of death.

If he really was the personification of death, then Death would be very beautiful in all his fine glory and wraithlike appearance. He had the blackest mane contrasted with pale, smooth skin. He had lips the color of ripe strawberries ready for plucking, and his eyes were the color of the cerulean ocean in its full, unspoiled glory. And if humans knew that his was the face that was going to meet them upon their demise, nobody would ever fear the transition to the afterlife.

But he wasn't death itself... He was merely an instrumentality of death... Someone who has to work religiously in schedule to uphold death's purpose... And thus, when it came to circumstances regarding death, he was helpless...

Wordlessly, like someone tired of a chore, he collected the card which held the burly, balding man’s soul. The card was colored black with intricate black details embedded unto its back, and the face of the burly, balding man in front. Unless he wills it, the burly, balding man’s soul will remain to be held inside the card.

Strangely enough, even though he knew that he had completed his assignment, he looked at his watch again as his lips appeared pursed in a thin line.

He knew that he was a few seconds earlier than what was scheduled and the realization of his mistake bitterly stung his conscience. Such intervention was never held unpunished.

Never.

One of the sacred rules in this duty was to never interfere with death... As it would have adverse consequences...

He momentarily paused and waited for something to happen… But nothing. He looked around, seemingly surprised.

No earthquakes, no sudden flashes of lightning, no higher beings appearing out of nowhere to reprimand him – Nothing. And that seriously struck him as odd…

Until he looked down at the little girl…

… and found her staring straight at him.

---------[end of prologue]---------

THAT'S IT!!!

haha

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Healthy Jealousy

2011-07-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

... Chapter 19 of Keeping the Casanova.

.............. I'M BACK, WITCHES!!! (I've always wanted to say that. LOL.)

So, law school has been draining my energy for the last few weeks. GAWD. My most freakin' favorite place in the world now is... the Law Library. T_T

No kidding!!!

My class starts at 5:30 in the afternoon most weekdays, but I spend time in the library from 2:00 PM, not because I want to, but because I have to read, read and read more.

In law school, going to class is like going to war - you have to prepared with weapons - in this case, knowledge of the lesson and the cases involved - because if you're not prepared, you're gonna look pathetic.

That has been the main reason why I barely have time to actually sit down to write and type my heart out. *sigh* Also, I have classes six days a week, so yeah...

My life right now in a collage of pictures. Coffee & fries included. =)

REPLIES:

dee:) - TUHMAAAA!!! Different people have different perspective of the same thing.

Trixie9394 - Oh, of course, there is a solution to every problem.. *winks* I'm the master mind behind this fic so everything will be okay.

leighannechan - LQs are normal, right? Even for married couples.

yeongweonhi02stary - Ahahaha Everyone shocked with Ji Hoo, right? *grin*

paradoxist - Ehehehe Not really. XDDD

babypillow - Wahahaha What??? Ji Hoo is a grown man after all. Come on! You give him so little credit! XD

alasdair_vahn - I must mention that I adore your avatar. I like it! =) Well, they're still newlyweds right? It's normal to bicker and quarrel at times. I'm trying to portray that side of marriage because contrary to what most people believe, marriages don't necessarily mean happy endings.

inday_yu - TRUE. But I guess she's trying not to look small compared to her husband, 'cause it's well-established that he's "up there" and she's not quite "there" yet, in terms of socio-economic status.

great.am - Who doesn't love the Jae Kyung & Woo Bin pairing?? Come on!

swtxlilqt95 - LOL. You're the only one seeing the positive thing in this chapter! I love you already!!! Well, in a non-lesbian sort of way, of course. haha

kly8 - Wahahaha the story behind Han Byul is revealed in Chapter 19. It's not a really big story anyways. Just a sort of misunderstanding. =)

iaimeyouS2 - I love dropping nukes every now and then. =)

Ahr3um - Well, let's just say that Yi Jung and Ga Eul's relationship isn't that stable yet because they're still newly weds. *winks*

suzy_me - Muahahaha Coz I'm evil like that, yo! =)

pinkfairyfloss - You have been added to the PM List! Thank you for reading! =)

zealous - New reader? haha Welcome to KTC!!! =)

teresaa- - LOL! Yi Jung PMS-ing!!! I LOVE THAT!!! XD You just made me crack a smile! =)

shar0nsaurus - haha Let's just say that Ji Hoo is for the side story. *winks*

deep.dreamer - There is an explanation in Chapter 19! You actually read my mind while I was writing Chapter 19, didn't you???

sylvia_psf - Like I said, I was dropping nukes on Chapter 18. I keep my promises. =)

xBeckkii - You've been added to the PM List! Welcome to KTC! Thank you for reading! =)

xloserr - You're welcome! Glad you like it! Thank you for reading! =)

jaequeen - LOL. You have a very active imagination. haha

Everyone, thank you so much for the patience.

It's really difficult to post updates regularly because of school.

But I hope you still continue to watch out for my updates! =)

Hope you enjoy reading!

regards,

the nonviolent torturer,

shatteredteardrops

Busy~

2011-06-12T00:50:00.000+08:00

I just started law school last June 6, 2011. And I just got through my first six days in law school. It was effing hellish, I tell you.

Nevertheless, I'm not here to talk about that.

Anyways, before classes started, I mapped out goals to do before I run out of free time. Unfortunately, I was not able to complete any of those goals because I had been very occupied with a lot of things.

Secondly, I would like to inform you all that my writing is going to take the back seat for now. Law school is demanding, and exhausting, and stressing and - It's crazy.

I just got through my first week and I'm already very dizzy with all the work I have to do, and all the cases I have to read and digest.

Truth be told, if I see another case, I'm going to barf. And that's saying much because I have to study 16 cases tomorrow for my graded recitation on Monday. And 200 more cases before Friday.

And what's more hellish is the fact that before I sleep at night since last week, I have been thinking of a fantasy romance plot for a story, and have been polishing character details in my mind. What's hellish is the fact that I don't have time to put it into paper!!! ARRRGGGGHHHHH!!!

I've also been itching to write an update for Keeping the Casanova and for He Caught Me but I just don't have the effing time!

It's disappointing and frustrating, plus the fact that my stress levels are soaring high up because of law school - my sanity has been treading on a very thin thread and very soon, I'm gonna snap. And when that happens, I will have to bitch-slap someone senseless to relieve stress. (Any volunteers?)

Anyways, that's it.

I'm not really going on a temporary hiatus, but I will have to say that I'm not going to be updating as frequently as before. Please understand and please be patient. You're going to be of a lot of help to me if you just be patient. Thank you very much.

regards,
shatteredteardrops

The Quiescent Kind

2011-06-03T00:25:00.003+08:00

... a one-shot.

Just to clarify any questions...

YES, I AM DaniFire

I made two versions: one for Soompi, the non-gasoo version, and the Wattpad & FictionPress version. I cater to different readers so I decided to make two versions.

The Quiescent Kind
Teaser/Preview

Dear May,

Let me start by quoting the eternal words of our favorite ol’ William… "Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind..." You made a mistake because you were in love with him but I still do think that it was better that you knew everything before it was too late.

Then, let me add my own quote because I know ol’ William and I share the same passion for poetry… “It is better to lose a lover… Than to love a loser.”

I know that no truer words have ever been spoken. And I know you’re probably rolling your eyes out because of sheer exultation for the showcase of my poetic prowess.

Ah, well, if you must know, I am honor-bound to act like a dork and sound completely idiotic just to make you feel better. But seriously, Baby Girl, this is the moment of truth. I’m completely being serious here… No sh*t!

-oOo-

POSTERS AND CHARACTER CHARTS:

In light of the two versions, I also made two posters & character charts.

The Original Fiction Version poster & character chart (For Wattpad).

The Soompi Non-Gasoo Version poster and character chart. (For Soompi Forums)

NOTE:

The Original version will be uploaded on FictionPress under DaniFire and on Wattpad under shatteredteardrops.

The Soompi version will be posted on Soompi Forums under DaniFire because it's been so long since I've used that account. =)

LINKS:

The Original Fiction Version - Wattpad & FictionPress.

The Soompi Non-Gasoo Version - Soompi Forums

What a shocking development in my writing career, isn't it? =)

regards,

shatteredteardrops a.k.a. Dia a.k.a. Dani a.k.a. DaniFire

Last Week of Summer

2011-06-01T17:34:00.000+08:00

This week is actually my last week "free"...

That is because my classes will start on June 6, Monday next week. But before that, I have a few things to do... Like buy school stuff, arrange my living quarters in the city, and buy some new clothes and things because I have a shortage of clothes.

I'm no longer gonna be wearing uniform so I need clothes, and because last month, I gave away most of my clothes to charity. So yeah... I need to do some shopping.

HOWEVER!

Before June 6 comes, I have a few goals set for myself.

Goals:

Re-write and re-vise Bittersweet Reunion up to Chapter 6.
Update He Caught Me on Wattpad.
Update KTC Chapter 19.
Read more fiction books.

That's it! Hopefully, before I return to my boarding house on Sunday, I would have completed these goals for this week. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed. =)

-shatteredteardrops

A Shock

2011-05-29T03:10:00.000+08:00

Chapter 18 of Keeping the Casanova...

Nukes are in this chapter. Muahahahaha *cough* *cough* I gotta practice my evil laugh more. XD

REPLIES:

teresaa- - Chapter 18 will somehow answer Han Byul's connection to the F4. That's all I'm giving away. =) As for Eun Hye & Shin Hye, well, right from the start, I was already intending to put them into the story. haha It was all planned up.

inday_yu - Ji Hoo's story is a sort of side story so I won't elaborate on that unless it's needed. But I do love me some Ji Hoo so maybe I can write about it more. =) As for Jae Kyung and Woo Bin, I always have fun writing about this couple. XD

Trixie9394 - Is Woo Bin making Jae Kyung jealous? Well... Hmmm... Maybe. But I have bigger plans for them. Muahahaha

dee:) - I also love the two of them! XD Muahahaha

deep.dreamer - Thank you! I hope you like Chapter 18 then. =)

Ahr3um - The Chapter was a bit short because it was a filler. =)

great.am - I know, right? I mean, the first time I saw Mi Nam in You're Beautiful, I was totally thinking of Eun Hye in Coffee Prince! XD

yeongweonhi02stary - That's what I was trying to portray Woo Bin as. Someone who can be good for a night or lust, but not for love. Awwww. =(

carylmeasblue - True that! I believe some people are just hormonally-driven. LOL.

starzz24 - I know exactly what you mean. =)

akemi_cho - Wow... I guess welcome back? haha Good luck on your studies, too! Hope you do well! =)

alasdair_vahn - There is a bigger reason why Woo Bin brought Jae Kyung to that restaurant. I write everything for a purpose, sometimes, the answer is just not that obvious. *winks*

paradoxist - It's alright! Studies first! =) I'm glad you still come back to read my story though. That really makes me feel nice. Muahahaha. Kidding! XD Good luck on your studies, too! Hope you do well! =) Don't worry. I'm going to continue sending PMs!

isdupt15 - Oh, sure... Surprises are my specialty. =)

leighannechan - Ditto! You can totally read my mind! =)

kly8 - He surely is! XD Come on, it's Jae Kyung we're talking about here. haha

sylvia_psf - Thank you! XD

shar0nsaurus - The possibilities are endless if you just think about it. XD Muahahaha~!

Everyone, thank you so much for the continued support!

Opening of classes are nearing again so I might have a bit of hang up in updating

but I promise to finish this story no matter what! =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

New Twitter Avatar!

2011-05-26T01:30:00.000+08:00

Cause I'm a retard like that. LOL.

Follow me on Twitter! Let's be friends!

(Yes, that's a Naruto hitai-ate (forehead protector) right there.

Yes, that's me wearing the hitai-ate.

Yes, I love Naruto.)

-shatteredteardrops

TAGGED!!!

2011-05-24T22:59:00.001+08:00

I was tagged by Alliza~~!

RULES:

Each tagged person must post ten things about themselves.
You have to choose and tag ten people.
Go to their blogs and tell them you tagged them.
No tag backs.
Have Fun.

1. I'm boyish.

2. I was a varsity player in basketball & Taekwondo before.

3. I write love stories.

4. I love Kpop.

5. I'm a listener. (than a talker)

6. I'm near-sighted.

7. I'm the eldest daughter in the family.

8. I used to sing in a band. (and compete in battle of bands)

9. I self-learned Photoshop.

10. I love chocolates.

That's it! =)

To The Readers of...

2011-05-19T02:27:00.001+08:00

...The Crimson Insignia & Ignominy,

First off, I would like to apologize for dragging you all into a world solely existing inside my mind, and leaving you hanging for several months. For making you wait, for making you expect, for making you excited... only to disappoint you in the end...

I'm sorry.

There is no excuse for such behavior and I solely take the blame for my mistake.

I have been in a constant battle against myself these past few months, trying to discern just what exactly should I do with my story. There were moments when I was caught up in a block, but pressed on and posted an update for you, guys... Those moments made me breathe a sigh of relief, but I knew that I was slowly losing the will to continue.

Don't get me wrong. Before I start any story, I have already laid out the trail of twists that will follow. I have always been a planner. The planning and the twists to put in the story is not the problem.

The problem is the lack of motivation. The lack of will to continue. It is not something that readers can demand for. It is something intangible and intimate that exists between a story and the writer.

Every story that I have created is like a child of mine, since it is something that came out of my own hands. I tend to it with care, late-night brainstorming and endless hours of typing. The work simply does not end after I post the first chapter. In fact, the needs of these "children"of mine increase once they are released into the vast world of the web.

I have had the opportunity to mother several "children". And I do admit it is hard. After all, I lead a double life. An offline life, and an online life. It's especially exhausting when my off-line life gets hectic and I have to get away from my online life for long periods of time.

When I started these stories, I really wanted to finish them.

But along the way, things didn't work out, and I just have to let go.

I perfectly knew that if I continued to write these stories despite the lack of motivation, it wouldn't be something that "the best of me" created. It will not have my heart in it. It would be like updating for the sole satisfaction of the readers, but without me in it. It would be like raising a child without love.

And so, I decided to discontinue writing TCI and Ignominy.

Since these stories are children of mine, I do not have the heart to kill them and say good-bye. Rather, I'd want to say "See you later" to them. I am not merely proposing an indefinite hiatus from writing these stories, rather I want to shelf them up and open them for later - a time when I can look at them again and maybe have the strength to correct my mistakes and finally finish them.

To sum up, I would like to apologize for not finishing the stories I've started. I apologize for starting an adventure with you guys, and not being able to finish it up until the very end.

I take all the blame and I apologize.

Sincerely,
shatteredteardrops

Love and Lust

2011-05-18T16:46:00.002+08:00

...Chapter 17 of Keeping the Casanova

Before I post the replies, I hope you guys don't mind if I rant a little bit.

Today isn't a very good day for me. My Dad left to work overseas, and I don't know when I'll be able to see him again. It was an abrupt departure and we weren't really expecting it. All of a sudden, he just received a call from his agency at 10 in the morning and by mid-day, he had to go to the airport and leave.

I was still asleep when he left. He didn't say good-bye. And I actually prefer it that he didn't.

Okay.

REPLIES:

swtxlilqt95 - Secret!!! wahahaha

inday_yu - Han Byul's appearance in the lives of the F4 definitely rocked their world. They're now thinking of their own futures! =)

natashaz - You have been added to the PM List!

yeongweonhi02stary - Well, I am trying my best to juggle out the three pairings I have going on in this fic. haha

alasdair_vahn - Correct! Han Byul is that influential! LOL.

Trixie9394 - I don't think Ga Eul is the one Kristofer Valfrid is looking for. =)

dee:) - Yeah, well, I kind of still don't know what to write about them at the moment so I'm diverting some attention towards the other pairs. LOL. I'm abnormal.

leighannechan - Me, too! I can't wait! XD

Ahr3um - Why do I get the feeling that you read minds? Especially mine? Wahahaha

deep.dreamer - LOL. Possibly. haha

teresaa- - Ji Eun's identity is finally revealed in Chapter 17, plus the introduction of another character! XD

kly8 - Kristofer Valfrid's story shal be unveiled in the near future. *winks* Oh, if Ji Hoo pancakes are sold somehwere, I'd buy at least a dozen! Along with Ji Hoo! Bwahahahaha (lunatic fan-girl mode)

carylmeasblue - I think so, too! LOL.

aliceex - Thank you! It's alright! =)

iaimeyouS2 - Haha Not really. XD

jaequeen - Whoah... What do you think will happen?! Tell me!!! I'm just curious... haha

sylvia_psf - Thank you! And your welcome! =)

isdupt15 - There is a reason why I'm still not writing about SoEul. *winks*

-oOo-

IMPORTANT NOTES:

For Chapter 17, the highlights are:

Ji Eun's real identity is revealed.
A new character is introduced.
More on Jae Kyung & Woo Bin.

I didn't write an update on SoEul because in all honesty, Chapter 17 is a filler chapter which will only fill space for a bit of development dedicated to the minor characters. Next Chapter, I'm going to drop nukes and bombs regarding SoEul as well as the real Father of Han Byul. Watch out for it! =)

Thank you so much for your continued support! =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Will be AFK for two weeks..

2011-05-04T07:50:00.000+08:00

AFK means Away From Keyboard..

I will be away from writing, posting and updating in the coming two weeks because of two reasons: 1.) Processing my law application, 2.) Trying to find employment for my lazy ass.

Seriously, the law application has been dragging on for too long because of the fact that the teachers, whose signatures I need to have on a piece of paper called a clearance, aren't showing up when I need them to.

Also, I just happened to take note of a job opening in a government office where I did my on-the-job-training. They have an opening for a clerical position so I was hoping I could apply.

Since law classes start at 5PM in the afternoon, I have the whole day free. That would be just enough time for me to take on a part-time job or a full-time one.

Wish me luck! =)

Will update after I'm through with these responsibilities...

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Mending What's Broken

2011-05-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

Chapter Sixteen of Keeping the Casanova

Author's Note:
For the last Chapter, you guys mentioned Kristofer Valfrid was an ass for saying that the F4 were gay. I'd like to clarify that I tried to see an outsider's perspective who might learn about the F4 for the first time, hence, it was that way. I meant no disrespect, okies? =)

REPLIES:

alasdair_vahn - True. There are still a lot of things that the F4 hasn't experienced so I try my best to write about them gaining experiences for character growth. Also, Ji Hoo is a heart surgeon, his specialty is operating on heart patients so even though he's a doctor, technically speaking, his field of expertise is different. Thanks for reading!

darkrainbowday-x - Aah.. Of course. Babies are the one of the hardest things to handle for a handsome gangster. haha

xloserr - I like Woo Bin and Jae Kyung, too, but since this is mainly a SoEul story, I try to focus more on Yi Jung and Ga Eul's relationship. *winks*

inday_yu - Ahahaha Incompetent child handlers! I love that line! XD

Trixie9394 - And thank you for reading! I try my best to inject humor as much as I could.. =)

dee:) - I couldn't stop myself from adding a little snippet of Woo Bin's inner turmoil at the end.. I think it balances the whole cheerful atmosphere. =)

kly8 - I know, right? XD

krazydaisy96 - And you are absolutely right. There is no way I'm going to leave Woo Bin hanging! =) I'm updating more frequently because it's summer here in the Philippines!

emkail - That's a possibility. *winks*

babypillow - Yeah! The F4 are so manly, they make everyone else pale in comparison! =)

iaimeyouS2 - I know! That's why I wrote that! Finally! Someone who understands the logic behind why Mr. Valfrid called the F4 gay! =)

sylvia_psf - Thank you! And thanks for reading! =)

carylmeasblue - Aww.. All of us want some happy ending for Prince Song. =)

teresaa- - Woo Bin's impotence is a sort of twist I didn't plan on putting but was very glad I put it in anyways.. Thanks for reading!

shar0nsaurus - Han Byul's father? Keke It's going to be a little shocker. XD

deep.dreamer - Actually, impotence may mean can have sex but not be able to fertilize the egg cells of the female. =)

Ahr3um - The real father will be revealed... soon. XD

leighannechan - Ga Eul PAWNED another guy! XD

yeongweonhi02stary - Agree! Low sperm count doesn't mean no sperm! LOL.

jaequeen - Please wait! haha Even if you can't! =)

Everyone, thank you very much for the support! =)

See you on the next chapter!

regards,

shatteredteardrops

Future Plans

2011-04-18T17:10:00.001+08:00

I've always been open about my plans to enter law school this coming June. And that's fixed as a tee, completely permanent and non-negotiable.

Aside from that, recently, I've been thinking about what to do about my writing. What are my future plans? What do I am to accomplish in the future? What else am I going to write about?

Well, to start off, I plan to graduate from writing SoEul stories. That's after I finish writing KTC, of course. I feel like it really is time for me to move on. I'm not giving up my hope for the Bumsso couple to reunite but I'm giving up writing about SoEul.

I would like to thank the fans of SoEul as well as Bumsso for serving as the readers of my stories for the last two years. To the readers at LU, Soompi, AF, and FF.net, thank you so much for the love. You have been my biggest motivation and for that, I really owe a lot to all of you.

I'm still going to finish KTC so you guys still have something to watch out for.. =)

Currently, aside from KTC, I'm beginning to concentrate more on working on original fiction stories (non-gasoo). Recently, I've registered on Wattpad.com and has posted one short story. I'm planning to write more original stuffs so I hope that you still continue to show support to me by reading my works.

As for my other stories on Soompi (TCI and Ignominy), well, I'm still thinking really hard about what to do to them... My head says I should just close their threads since it's been so long since I updated but my heart just couldn't simply give them up...

Well, that's it for now. =)

-shatteredteardrops

Good and Bad

2011-04-15T01:30:00.002+08:00

I just started my Twitter Account!

Let's be friends!

Follow me on Twitter! I'll follow you back! =)

Chapter 14 of Keeping the Casanova..

REPLIES:

__krazydaisy96 - Thank you! I will! =)

__carylmeasblue - Thank you! YesS!! I survived College!!! Bwahahahaha! I am so awesome! XD Good luck to you, too! Law school, well, yeah... I bet it'll be hecka busy but I will still continue this story.=) Puahahaha! Get me as your lawyer? I wouldn't do that if I were you. I have a tendency to fan-girl at random times. LOL. XD Kidding!

__alasdair_vahn - Thank you! I'm still thinking for the twist of the DNA test though... Bwahahaha!

__dee:) - Thank you! Yep, I'm trying to enjoy my break for now. Hopefully, I get to accomplish lots of things... *keeps fingers crossed* GO AWAY LAZINESS!!! XD

__Trixie9394 - Thank you! I haven't actually gotten into a law school yet. I have to take entrance exams first. =) And thank you to you, too, for patiently waiting for me to get out of my hibernation from writing. =)

__kly8 - Thank you! =)

__Ahr3um - Thank you! XD hahaha There's going to be a twist on Han Byul's parentage. *winks*

__auriella_varela - Thank you! I'm not yet a law student, by the way. I still have to take an entrance exam to qualify. The exams are to be given starting next month so I still have a few weeks before I officialy become a law student. =)

__deep.dreamer - haha Not yet... That's just the tip of the iceberg, baby. *winks*

__inday_yu - A twist shall come on the result of teh DNA test! XD

__jayz79 - Thank you for the patience and the comment! =)

__mangga2711 - Thank you! Hope everything goes well for you, too! =) And thank you so much for the patience in waiting for my updates!

__yeongweonhi02stary - The Casanova taking care of the baby would be epic... Plus, being assisted by the other F4! Damn! That would be sooooo LOL. XD hahaha Thank you! Yep, memorisation and stuff... Ugh... I get goosebumps just thinking about it.

__jaequeen - Woo Bin and Jae Kyung, well, haha I think I'll update about them on the next chapter... Not in this one. =)

__iaimeyouS2 - Well, I bet you're nice in your own way, too. =) Thank you and thank you to you, too, for the patience and support!

__leenie2236 - I love writing about them, too! XD Do I like Mario? Heck, I ASDFGHJK LOVE HIM!!! I first saw him in Crazy Little Thing Called Love, then in Love of Siam... haha You're Thai? Cool! XD

__sapphirever - I couldn't agree more. XD

__paradoxist - The real appa of the baby is.... *dun dun dun dun* *winks*

__leighannechan - You're welcome, and thank you for the comment, too!

__teresaa- - haha The Mafia and The Heiress... I think that's a cool title! Hmmm...

__swtxlilqt95 - Good luck on your studies! Hope you do well! =)

-oOOo-

Everyone, thank you so much for the support! =)

regards,

the nonviolent torturer,

shatteredteardrops

Hot, Cold and Lukewarm

2011-04-07T00:49:00.000+08:00

Ladies and Gentlemen, Chapter 13 of Keeping the Casanova has been posted on LU, Ff.net, AF and Soompi!
I finally updated! Horaaaay! XD

Hopefully, I can post regular updates from now on. =)
Let's keep our fingers crossed now, shall we?

*winks*

-shatteredteardrops

Whoever you are...

2011-04-06T19:45:00.001+08:00

from so-IN-love (Read More?)

This reply is probably a year too late and I apologize. It's only recently that I've been able to view the comments in my blog posts so here is a long overdue reply to Miss so-IN-love, whoever you are. =)

First off, yes, I am the same shatteredteardrops (shattered_teardrops) from Winglin, LU, Asianfanfiction.com, Fanfiction.net and Soompi who wrote Capturing the Casanova and Keeping the Casanova. haha Ironic, isn't it? That I am able to weave spunky romance stories though my own love story doesn't even come close to having a happy ending... =)

Aha! So you're a Filipina, too? Nice to meet you! =) I'm glad I was able to reach out to my fellow Filipinos through my writing!

Yes, I do agree that this may be the sharpening process for both of us. Relating this to the SoEul pair, Chan Sung may have been my potter's kiln which burned me but made me stronger in the process. Yes, I've watched One More Chance and you have no idea how much that movie hit me with so much emotion because I was able to relate to Bash (Bea).

Thank you so much for leaving footprints in my blog. You have no idea how much you've made me happy knowing that I was able to touch another person's life through my story.

As of the moment, I am happy and contented. I am single but committed, and let's leave it at that. *winks* I'm no longer filling my head with delusions of getting back with Chan Sung because I have my whole life ahead of me. I'm entering law school on June and that's what I'm prepping myself for. =)

Again, thank you very much, Miss so-IN-love, whoever you are. And if you happen to read this, I wish you happiness in life as well. May you have a love story that transcends even story books and novels, and maybe, if by the moment you find love and have no one to share it with, I'm very much open to listen.

God bless you and take care! =)

-shatteredteardrops

The Long Awaited

2011-04-01T00:01:00.002+08:00

To update those of you who are still waiting, well, truth is, I'm still working on an update for Keeping the Casanova. Currently, the word count is 1, 464... My minimum word count per update is 2, 000, so you'll just have to wait a little more. I might update next week.

Another trivia about this update is that, this was 98% typed on my handy dandy celphone. Yep, you read right. On my phone. I just got a new phone as a present from my Dad. It's a Nokia E63 and it really suited my needs as a person, reading-wise and writing-wise. =)

If you guys want proof that I'm working on an update, here's a little screenshot:

Are you guys excited? keke

-shatteredteardrops

Mobile Blogging Trial Post

2011-03-30T17:46:00.001+08:00

So, i'm trying out if i could post blog updates directly from my phone to my blog.. And this is a trial post.. Haha

Actually, since my laptop is being hoarded by my brother, I thought of using my phone as an alternate medium for posting. XD

Edit and Fix

2011-03-19T23:23:00.001+08:00

Today, starting 5 o'clock in the afternoon, I edited the messed up code tags of Ignominy on Soompi Forums... I briefly stopped for dinner and continued editing again. Currently, it's 11:18 in the evening and I've finally finished fixing the messed up tags of all 26 Chapters.

I also have to fix the messed up tags of my other stories on Soompi. Don't ask my why I trouble so much... I'm OCD like that...

Here's a small preview of how the newly fixed Ignominy thread on Soompi Forums look like...

Anyways, just to get some points across, I would like to clarify that I'm not abandoning my unfinished stories. Everything is just so crazy right now because I'm graduating from College on March 25.

Although it has crossed my mind to just abandon my stories when my flashdisk got lost, I realized that my stories are my children. They're the offspring of my love for writing and my late-night typing, so if I abandon them, it's just like abandoning my children... And I just can't take that...

So, hopefully, within the next few weeks, I finally conjure an update for you guys.

Again, I apologize for the long wait. Please bear with me...

Oopsie Daisies~

2011-02-20T01:55:00.000+08:00

Okay, I just checked my Mediafire Account and realized that I have unintentionally deleted the PDF file of Capturing the Casanova. That means, the download link for that PDF file doesn't work anymore.

I didn't know this until today. And it has probably been months that the link wasn't working. For this, I apologize.

Anyways, I've re-uploaded CTC PDF file on Mediafire and the link has been changed. I've updated the download link in this blog so it should work just fine. teehee

That's it!

As for updates, patience, my dear minions. =)

Fans and Idols (a one-shot)

2011-02-19T18:38:00.000+08:00

TITLE: "Fans and Idols"

LENGTH: One-Shot

AUTHOR: Shattered Teardrops

POSTED AT: AFF

NOTE:

Before you read the story,

please watch the video below

to better picture out the story. =)

-~//oOo//~-

I watched him with my head tilted sideways in pure awe and wonder. His eyes were closed, his head was nodding rhythmically, following the tempo. His hair was slick and wet with perspiration that I suddenly felt an urge to tangle my fingers among them. His red luscious lips were parted as he drew out ragged breaths in exhilaration.

And even though it seems as if there was nothing more fascinating than the sight of him in his full musical glory, I allowed my sight to travel far down from his face, only to be greeted by the feast of his bare torso, slick and wet with perspiration just like his face.

The whole picture was eye-gasmic; if ever there’s such a term.

He was sitting like a king on his throne - a drummer’s stool; in his right hand, his fingers were twirling his drumstick in between the pauses of his accolade. His hips were gyrating to the beat of the song to which he was playing a drum cover.

Aptly, the song was 2PM’s Heartbeat.

It was titillating, enthralling and captivating - errotic even. Does he even know what kind of effect he has on me? What about the people who might see him like this? I wonder if they’ll have the same reaction as me... Hmmmm...

I watched him loose himself between the loud bangs and clangs of the drum. His head was whipped from side to side as he was lost in the rhythm of the song. He didn’t even need to look at the percussion instruments he played before him because he knew them by heart.

A small smile tugged at my lips. Whenever there was music, he was in his element. And everything else was secondary - everything else never really did matter to him. That was the main reason why he left me in the first place - to pursue music.

At this thought, the smile on my lips turned into a bitter one.

God, I love this man...

I momentarily closed my eyes as I watched from a distance. I needed to remind myself that no matter how much I loved this man, I wasn’t anyone important to him. Just like everything else, I’m just secondary to his music.
Finally, the hype of the song slowly proceeded to its denouement. The drum beats slowed down until everything faded into silence. He slowly opened his eyes and smiled warmly.

“Was it good?” He asked.

I smelled a wee bit of liquor on his breath as he came closer.

“Perfect.” I answered as I pushed the stop button on the camcorder I was holding. “Now, all we have to do is to have it edited, and you’re good to go to upload it online.” I smiled and handed him the camcorder.

“Just like that, huh?”He asked and set the camcorder down on the nearby table.

“Yes. Just like that.” I replied and picked up my coat hanging from the back of the nearby chair. “Now, as much as I’d like to stay awhile, my work here as your camerawoman is done.” I purposely stated and turned my back on him.

‘A moment’s fascination with him is enough...’I thought to myself bitterly.
I was suddenly halted from walking away by two strong limbs which encircled themselves around me. Taken aback by his sudden boldness, I spied a half-empty bottle of brandy by the desk and vaguely smelled it on him.

“Don’t go...” I heard him say.

“You’re drunk, Min Woo... You better get yourself sober and rest. You still have a schedule to follow through tomorrow. Manager-sshi will not like it if you showed up drunk.” I tried to sound sensible but knew deep inside me that I was faking it.

This - the way his arms were encircled around me - it felt so damn right that it scares me.

“F*ck the schedule... I want to be with you...” He said and nuzzled his face at the back of my head. “Stay.” It sounded like a command to me and I knew deep in my heart that I really wanted to follow it and just allow myself to drown with him for one night.

But it was against my better judgment, and I knew him too much to know that he wouldn’t even remember it in the morning.

“I can’t.” I almost choked on the words as I felt a huge lump forming at the base of my throat.

Here he was - the love of my life - asking me to stay with him for the night, and yet I refuse. This was Noh Min Woo we’re talking about here, the very same man whose mere gaze makes the hearts of girls swoon in delight - just as he does with mine.

“Stay... Please...” He repeats again, this time a little more pleading as I felt his arms grow tighter around me.

I fumble for words to say, to mask out the hurt and painful struggle that I was feeling at the moment, and ended up saying, “Yah... Chugo re?” God, I sounded awful.

I heard him chuckle behind me, and slowly, I felt him withdrew both his hands. “Just as I thought...”He said with a bitter smile. “I will never be able to persuade you into anything... I’m just a musician after all.” He shrugged his shoulders with a helpless expression on his face.

“Ani...” I turned to look at him with a smile. “You’re Noh Min Woo, musician extraordinaire, have you forgotten?” I reminded him.

“And you? You are Park Hyo Sang, my number one fan.” He grinned sheepishly.

You know that one moment when you grasp for words to describe what you’re feeling but you’re so overwhelmed that you fail? Then you just smile... And that just describes everything.

“That’s right. I am, and I will always be your number one fan.” I repeated, this time in a confident and cheerful tone.

Even though I can’t be as important to him as his music, at least he knows that I exist and he recognizes me as if his number one fan. For me, that’s enough.

“So, idol-sshi, I will be going now. Don’t drink too much next time or else I will tell Manager-sshi...” I threatened. “See you!” I waved and turned my back on him to leave.

“Yah! Fan-aghasshi! Whoever made the rule that idols and fans can’t fall in love...” He paused.

I turned my heel around and faced him once again, waiting for what he was about to say. “Well?” I prodded, curious of where his next statement was going to lead.

He smiled sheepishly, “Well, whoever said that idols and fans can’t fall in love... probably hasn't met us yet...” He said with a boyish smile on his face.
I smiled back at him but held back a response. I threw him one final wave and turned my heel one last time to leave.

‘Us? Falling in love?’ I mused. I do believe that we’re way past that stage. It’s just that the circumstances just don’t spin in our favor yet. But in time, I believe it will be.

As a fan, I have the obligation to keep him safe from whatever scandal that might hurt him and his career. He just begun venturing into other areas aside from music, I can’t possibly do something to hurt his growing career. That would be utterly selfish of me if I did those.

Besides, even before Noh Min Woo became Trax’s Rose, even before he became Pasta’s Phillip, even before he became Gumiho’s Park Dong Joo and even before he became Boohwal, he was my childhood friend and first love. And that is that.

-FIN

Author's Note:

This is my first attempt to thwart myself out of Hiatus. Although, of course, I'm still struggling due to the loss of my handy dandy flashdisk. *sigh* I had to re-write all the updates I was planning to post online. Hopefully, although I'm a bit occupied by my OJT and Thesis Project, I can have enough time to re-write everything I've lost. Let's keep our fingers crossed, shall we?

I Lost Ranmaru.. TT_TT

2011-02-14T03:16:00.001+08:00

Ranmaru, ladies and gentlemen, is my 4Gig Flashdrive which has been with me for two years already. Ranmaru is in charge of keeping all my school work files and even my written stories.

I lost him. =(

I also lost the chapters I've started working on since I was planning to get out of hiatus. I also lost the soft copy of my thesis and research paper. I lost all the original Word documents of all my stories.

In short, I'm left with none so I have to re-copy everything that I have posted online. And the ones I've started writing, I can't recover. =(

This is all just so upsetting.

Oh, and yeah, on a lighter note, Happy Valentine's Day, everyone! =)

*scurries back to the corner and resumes mourning for Ranmaru*

ANNOUNCEMENT: INDEFINITE HIATUS

2011-01-08T01:53:00.001+08:00

To My Readers,

I regret to inform you that I will be going in an indefinite hiatus from writing my current unfinished stories. I have been struggling since last year to post updates and I'm really sorry to inform you that my schedule really isn't being very helpful right now.

Like I've said over and over again, I am a Senior in College and I'm still struggling to graduate this year. Hopefully. I have an on-the-job training to take care of, plus a Thesis to complete (I haven't even started it yet.). That and the usual school load including projects, exams and stuff like that.

Also, I have a lot of extra-curricular activities lined up. I'm part of our University's Debating Team and I've got a series of Debates lined up where I'm supposed to travel to far places. We just won the Regional Competition in Oxford-Oregon Format for the Philippine Association of Universities and State Colleges yesterday. That means, I and my team mates are going to have to proceed to the National Level of the Competition on February 20-21, 2011. I don't exactly know where we're going for the National Level. I'm not sure if it's going to be in Isabela or in Vigan but surely, we're going to have to travel.

Aside from that, I'm also going to compete in a Debate Competition among Political Science students all over the Philippines on January 28-30, 2011 using the Australasian Format of Debate, and that will be in Iligan. That's pretty far from where I am so that means travel as well.

So, yeah, I have no choice but to announce an indefinite hiatus from writing, and practically my online life as Shattered Teardrops. I apologize for this but I hope you understand that I have other priorities to settle aside from writing.

The Year 2010

2010-12-31T17:56:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year, Everyone!!!

The year 2010 has undoubtedly added another batch of memories for me to remember in my life as an amateur writer online. I'll admit that this year has not been too productive for me since my life outside writing has taken most of my time.

However, I'm proud to say that this year has allowed me to evaluate why I write and for whom I write. The controversies I've faced against the anonymous haters on my formsprings allowed me to grow up and realize that I don't really have to please anybody.

I write for myself, for my creative outlet and never to please anyone. The readers who support my work and actually take time to comment about how they appreciate what I write are just bonuses for the craft I enjoy.

Secondly, amidst the controversies, I've gained friends online who continue to support me even though we don't really know each other personally. I think that it's really amazing for people to become friends despite the cultural difference and despite distance.

Third, I still would like to continue giving all the credits to God Almight for every endeavor I have undertaken and succeeded. Without Him, I would never have achieved or conquered whatever tests and problems I have encountered in the year 2010.

Lastly, to the people especially to the readers, thank you so much for the support. =) I will try my best and hardest to continue improving my craft and give you more wonderful stories to read in 2011. =)

God Bless You, Everyone!!

Happy Holidays, Everyone!

2010-12-25T22:25:00.001+08:00

I just dropped by to wish everybody a merry, merry Christmas!
And also, have a Happy New Year!
This Christmas, apart from the food, lights and gifts,
let's not forget the birth of our Lord.
God Bless you and your family! =)

Busy as hell

2010-12-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

My life took a sudden dive for a lot of things... Literally.

I will have a few days off for Christmas but that's the only rest I get after a lot of weeks filled with strenuous activities ranging from mountain-hiking, gift giving, Christmas parties and the moohlaah... er... whatever.

Anyways, I will try to conjure an update for my stories during the few days of free time I'm allowed to have in the spirit of Christmas. Hopefully, it'll be my Christmas gift to all of you. =)

Just Started my OJT

2010-12-02T03:12:00.000+08:00

That is my on-the-job-training at the Office of the Ombudsman... I just started yesterday, December 1, 2010 and everything is going well so far.

This pretty much takes up most of my free time during weekdays aside from my classes so yes, I'm still busy. Gaaahhh... Free time, when will you ever come to me and give me enough rest?!

Anyways, yeah, that's it.

Wish me luck on my OJT! =)

Forgiveness and Developments

2010-11-27T00:58:00.001+08:00

Chapter 12 of Keeping the Casanova

Yoreubun, cheongmal choisong hamnida!!!

I know I've been MIA for more than a month and I deeply apologize. Senior year in College is just... damn hectic. I will be graduating in a few months so there are a lot of things I have to take care of. And after College, law school is waiting. So yeah... Everything is just so... crazy for me.

Again, I apologize for the lack of update for the last several weeks.

I just want you guys to know that I have no plans of abandoning this fanfic. I'm going to finish it up until the last chapter. It's just that life has been throwing tedious stuff at me and those affect my writing a lot.

I hope you, guys, understand and don't get tired of waiting for my updates. =)

REPLIES:

TO EVERYONE - The mystery regarding Woo Bin's impotence will be revealed in a small twist within the future chapters. Don't you guys worry for our Prince Song! I'll take care of him! I promise! =)

__syalovee - Aww... Honestly, writing about Woo Bin's impotence made me feel bad, too... He affects me that much. *sob*

__babsy10 - Not first, but you're second! keke

__alasdair_vahn - Yep, this Chapter was a sort of transition for Woo Bin and Jae Kyung. Can't write anything much for Ga Eul and Yi Jung because they're having an LQ. keke

__inday_yu - Aaahhh... The whole 'impotence' thing will be given light in the future chapters, don't worry. *winks* I've always thought that Ji Hoo's personification in the drama was a bit lacking (no offense to Kim Hyun Joong. I'm not against him. It's his character in the drama that I'm disatisfied with.). Okay, so he's the strong and silent type, Jan Di's soulmate, then what? So, in this fic, since I'm literally playing 'God' with the characters, I wanted to portray a different kind of Ji Hoo - the kind that stays true to his character but adds more color to it. You know what I mean? keke The mystery in the baby's birth would be revealed in the future chapters, too. =) Ahhh... Woo Bin is another character I would like to the take liberty to provide depth in this fanfic. He's not just some randomly-spouting-English-ebonics gangster. He's waaay more than that. =)

__starzz24 - Thank you for reading for the comment!

__lildragongurl - What can I say? I write with a certain degree of unpredictability that baffles most of my readers. Unpredictability is in my blood so if I say Woo Bin is impotent, he is. Muahahahaha! Yeah, I love conflicts, too! They make stories a lot interesting! haha

__Trixie9394 - The DNA testing will come in another chapter. Let's just enjoy a few sweet moments for Chapter 12, shall we? hehe

__iHEARTTyooh - The other thing I enjoy writing in this story aside from SoEul is Woo Bin and Jae Kyung. I will not deny that. =)

__xxSanityx - I guess you forgot to comeback? haha

__deep.dreamer - Er... The last time I checked this was a SoEul fic? haha But don't worry... You're not the only one confused about which pair to write about. It's hard when Jae Kyung and Woo Bin are pulling me to write about them but I need to remind myself that this is in fact, a SoEul fic. *sigh* What a dilemma. haha

__yeongweonhi02stary - I also believe that none of the F4 fathered the baby. But that's just me. haha

__dee:) - WHOAH? ahaha I love SoEul and WooBinXJaeKyung equally, too... It's just that sometimes, I'm a bit confused which pair should I write about. Ultimately, I still remind myself that this is a SoEul fic. LOL.

__Ahr3um - Woo Bin and Jae Kyung rock my socks! XD

__suzy_me - Okay. Here's a little clue why I included Impotence and LSC in one sentence - the average person (ex. Woo Bin) who is not involved in a medical profession, or is not in any way interested in the medical field, will generally define impotence as a male's inability to fertilize a female and bear offsprings. Technical definitions will come later. keke It's all part of the misunderstanding so don't worry, we'll get to that later. =)

__teresaa- I got you wondering, didn't I? keke My last year in College is hellish. I don't want to even think about it. Ugh. Thanks for reading, anyways!

__iaimeyouS2 - Thank you!

__paradoxist - I want mini-Woo Bins! ahaha

__flywithmee16 - You have been added to the PM List! Welcome to the family! Thanks for reading! =)

__jaequeen - So many questions... haha But I'm not going to reveal any answer. Muahahaha! Those will be answered in the future chapters!

__SwtAznStar18 - Putting advance technology aside, to think about it, if Woo Bin really wants to have a child, he should first look for a wife. *winks*

__kimjica - You've been added to the PM List! Thank you for reading!

__krazydaisy96 - agree! The plot thickens! ahaha

__belle6022 - Jae Kyung and Woo Bin will get there. Patience, dear reader, patience. ahaha

__kly8 - Thank you for reading and for the comment!

__shar0nsaurus - This chapter (Chapter 11) was especially written for Woo Bin and Jae Kyung. hehe Glad you liked it!

__leighannechan - Kinda makes you wish you have a Woo Bin of your own, doesn't it? haha

__miss_vicky - Thank you for actually informing me that the XLR8 Forum disappeared. Must be the work of antis. Anyways, thanks for catching up and reading!

__KIM--ONEE - Don't be so devastated. Everything will be alright eventually. hehe Btw, I know this is random but I sooooo LOLed at your avatar! ahaha I would like to leave my Mom a letter just like that!

__sylvia_psf - Those will be answered in the future chapters. =)

__Mizz_Ana_cutez - No worries. I don't really mind even if readers are late at commenting. hehe Know this, if Yi Jung and Ga Eul are SoEulmates, Jae Kyung and Woo Bin are made for reach other. ahaha

__miquah - I know, right? Aaahhh... The honeymoon will come... er... when I decide to have it. ROFL. I'm so evil like that, 'yo! XD

__*Lolo*Is*Loco* - You are now part of the PM List! Thank you for reading!

__aliceex - And thank you for reading and for the comment! hehe I don't really mind even if you're late at commenting. =)

__virtuosorosiny - Now that you mention it, the next generation would definitely be hilarious bunch! ahaha Yeah... I can only imagine a group of the richest kids with such unique parents. haha Oh, there is definitely a spark of attraction between Woo Bin and Jae Kyung... I write it to be so! Ain't I ever so powerful? ahaha Kidding! It's alright... Better late than never! haha Thanks for reading!

The Readers

2010-11-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

(a completely random essay by Shattered Teardrops about Readers and Reading.)

There is that certain power coming from a reader’s mind which brings the characters of a book to life; a power that is only given to the very few whose solitary silences are spent in the company of books.

It is a strange power but a wonderful one nonetheless, for it liberates readers from the physical constraints of their surroundings and gives them wings to fly through time and space without moving an inch from where they are standing or sitting.

This power is imagination – the very power to picture people, things and culture that may have not existed within the reader’s time or within the reader’s culture.

Reading allows the reader to glimpse into the minds and hearts of the characters within the book who are whole-heartedly written by the Author; and in a small indirect way, the reader and Author meets through these characters.

Whereas the Author teaches and weaves a series of events through words, the reader learns and rides the emotions and situations presented by the characters and their circumstances. And within the pages of a book, imagination makes the reader grow, learn and experience various things.

One can say that a Reader is a special being bestowed with such a power to be enlightened through the words inscribed within the pages of a book. He is given the unrestrained power of the mind to freely run where the book directs it to go.

And with each and every book a Reader reads, his heart soon follows and experiences the same guiding emotions felt by the characters. Not only the reader is an enlightened person to understand the complexities of human relationships as described within the books, he is also a compassionate person to be able to relate and feel the same emotions as the characters.

Although the words within the book describe everything there is within the story, the Reader is freely given the liberty to read between the lines or not. At some point within the story, the Author loses control of the little things and details which the Reader’s mind makes up for.

Yes, the Author is responsible for the story and the characters; but it is the Reader who is responsible for the story’s interpretation and therefore, holds a more powerful position than the Author. Once the book leaves the Author’s hand and reaches the palm of the Reader, the Reader’s power is invoked and there… the magic starts.

The Angel of Death

2010-11-20T22:27:00.000+08:00

Chapter 35 of The Crimson Insignia: The Angel of Death

Minna-san!!! Honto ni gomen ne~~~!!!

I've been absent for more than a month and I deeply apologize for that. Life has been... shitty. My schedule stresses me out a lot. School is crazy as usual and yeah... I'm graduating from College in a few months... But then, law school is waiting for me. Ugh.

Anyways, just to assure you guys that I'm not leaving my stories behind, I've finally (forcibly) ignored my schedule for a few hours and came up with an update.

Actually, the Chapter has been sitting unfinished in my handy-dandy flashdrive for weeks now... I only recently had time to finish and edit it. And now, I finally had time to post it!

Anyways, I hope you guys aren't tired of my slow updates yet... For those who are still waiting, thank you so much for the patience and support. Arigatou gozaimasu! =)

Replies:

__teresaa- - I miss you, too! hehe I'm still laying down foundations for the series of events that will happen in succession. Thank you for the comment!

__betty_7_30 - You made my day, too! Don't worry... Any comment is appreciated! =)

__cahaya - As always, thank you for the detailed comment! And for the address, too! I will definitely use it in the future chapters!

__Princess_Wincyy - Yeah, I agree. =)

__dyang4 - Yep! Back to a little bit of moving for her! =)

__pinkslippers - Don't worry. You're not the only one who has been MIA for a weeks. haha Will the sparring be sexy as hell? keke We'll see. *winks*

__xXKymmXx - Sorry it took so long for me to post this update. And thank you for reading!

__lipstain_ - Yep, I'm a Filipina. Hello, kabayan! XD You've been added to the PM List! Thank you for reading! =)

__SHINEjaejoong - I finally updated... AGAIN! haha Sorry, I like making fun of myself. Yep, Asuka was the one who went on a double date with Ryou, Miharu and Shin. haha It's been already a lot of chapters back so it;s understandable if you forget. I forget things about the story as well, too.

__beef taco - Would it be weird if I forget things in the past chapters as well? That's why I often need to track back and re-read. haha

__xsweeetzx - Ahh... Everyone is excited about the sparring. haha I am, too! But that would be for another chapter. =)

__asianekawaii - Thank you! haha And I apologize for the super delayed update. Tsk, tsk... Thank you for reading, nonetheless!

__simpleangel - Hisashiburi! Whoah... Now that you mention it, what would happen if Ryou and Miharu met as the heirs?! haha Thank you for reading!

__heavenfalling - Thank you! Glad you liked the little teasers! You've been added to the PM List! Thank you for reading! =)

__leighannechan - Ahhh... The sparring session definitely! haha Thank you for reading!

__babsy10 - Why no Miharu and Shin? I'm saving it for later. haha

__shushshuckspui - I'm back... AGAIN! haha Thank you for reading!

__ShinHyunJoon - Sure, you can be on the PM List! And thank you for contributing so many addresses! I will definitely use them on the future chapter and credit you for them! =)

__starlight_dreams - Thank you! I'm glad you think so! =)

Again, thank you so much everyone! Hope you don't get tired of reading and waiting for my updates! =)

I'ma make it public now

2010-11-12T01:20:00.000+08:00

So, uh... It's been really quiet here for more than a month now because my writing has been deterred by several things going crazy all at once, so yeah...

This place being my Writer's Blog contains everything about my write-ups, stories and fiction finds. Basically, it's a place where I just post things about my life and hardships as an amateur writer.

Just to let you guys know, I'm still alive. haha

Anyways, uhm... I'm just going to plug a little bit. If you are interested to know me aside from being a writer, I have another blog where I keep my personal posts about my life as a student, as a person and also the things I like.

So, yeah... I've been keeping this personal blog of mine for a few months now because of the Haters incident... But then, since things have calmed down, I've decided to make it public as well.

Check it out. >>> Ironic Ramblings. (Clickety-click!)

I will be updating if I find time to polish the new Chapter for TCI... As for KTC, well, I started something but it's still unfinished. Hopefully, I get my lazy ass to work on it within the next few weeks. Let's keep our fingers crossed.

[Book Review] Loving Will Shakespeare

2010-11-06T00:42:00.000+08:00

Title: Loving Will Shakespeare
Author: Caroline Meyer

The whole story evolves around our main protagonist, Agnes (Anne) Hathaway, the woman who became the wife of the world's greatest playwright. The book depicts her journey from childhood, her troubles with her family and up until she died.

This story is a journey of one woman's hardships in a very conservative society where women were regarded as of inferior quality than men. In addition, the Author has stated at the end of the story about which part of the story has been based on recorded historical facts and which parts had been fiction.

What I love about this book is that although this was entirely about Agnes Hathaway, it humanized William Shakespeare. This story showed that although William Shakespeare was deemed at the world's greatest playwright, he was failure in other aspects such as in being a husband and in being a father to his children.

Agnes was already twenty-seven when she married Will who was just barely eighteen. And what's more, they married out of wedlock because she was already carrying his child with her. Even then, from childhood up until being married with the young and energetic Will, Agnes showed that she wasn't one to be easily beaten.

She lived through the precarious mistreatment of her Step-mother, through the vile tauntings of her step-sister, through the sorrowful parting with a lover in favor of her family, and even through the death of a husband whom she was comfortable but not in love with.

Caroline Meyer was able to weave fiction and facts through this one of a kind novel which depicted the manner of living during Agnes Hathaway's times. Details and picturesque words were able bring out the whole story as if it was unfolding before my very eyes.

And how did I feel towards this story? Well, it was a bittersweet one. Surely, a woman of Agnes Hathaway's caliber deserved much more than what was given to her. At least, she deserved a husband that stayed by her side rather than spend a mere fortnight in their house.

But then, I also applaud her for the courage she showed in living at such a time when women were bound by societal confines.

Although, I for one, am not really a fan of historical romances and stories, this one was a unique read. It gave me an insight behind Will Shakespeare's background while growing up and told the story of one very unique woman who lived despite odds.

regards,
shatteredteardrops

It's Bloody 3AM

2010-10-31T18:13:00.000+08:00

And I'm dead tired of editing all the pages of my posted stories on Soompi just because of the messed-up image links courtesy of my banned account at Tinypic.

What I did not realize when I edited the first few pages of my story The Crimson Insignia, is that the lay-out codes were all messed up courtesy of Soompi's previous lay-out changing... So then, not only did I have to edit the image-links, I had to re-do the format of more than thirty chapters of TCI.

I have a feeling I have to re-do the formats of my other stories as well (Ignominy, Three Ripped Photographs, Capturing the Casanova, etc.)...

I want to sit down and write but then, I have to fix these things within the next few days while I struggle with my enrollment for the second semester at the University... Hopefully, I finish all these tasks ASAP so I can finally sit down and write.

I haven't updated in more than a month and I just hate that.

regards,
shatteredteadrops

My Tinypic Account has been banned

2010-10-31T01:48:00.000+08:00

And I don't know why...

So in effect, I discovered that the posters of most of my stories on Soompi were gone. This means more work for me to revise the image links and fix things. (The same thing goes for my story posters on AsianFanfiction.)

I just got back from Baguio and I am seriously dead tired now.
I think I'll go work on 'em for the next few days.

I have to catch up on the Dramas I watch, and of course catch up on my sleep.
I feel like crap. Ugh. One week far away from home does that to you.

regards,
shatteredteardrops

I Want Some Break

2010-10-13T22:57:00.001+08:00

But I just can't.

Here's my schedule:

October 6, 7, 8 were my final exams.
October 9 ,10, 11, 12 were spent for working/meeting/submitting projects and deadlines.
October 13, (today), I had a one-day rest.
October 14, 15, 16 - Practice for National Debate Championships.
October 17 - National Civil Service Exams.
October 18, 19, 20, 21 - Final preparations for NDC.
October 22 - Kick start of NDC at University of Cordillera in Baguio.
October 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30 - NDC. Yes, a week of debating.
October 26- Enrollment for second semester at University. (But since I'm in Baguio, I'm going to be a late enrollee.)
October 30 - Trip back from Baguio and there's a Cosplay Competition I really want to watch.
November 1 - Holiday. All Soul's Day.
November 2 - All Saint's Day and First Day of Class for the 2nd Semester.
November 3 - My little bro's birthday.
November 4 and onwards - Regular classes with Thesis-making and OJT.

Where do I fit in time to write?!

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Academic Stuff

2010-10-01T11:48:00.002+08:00

I would like to apologize in advance and also inform you guys that I will not be able to update for this weekend as well as next week...

I will try but it'll be hard to produce an update for any of my stories.

Reason is, my final exams are going to be on October 6, 7, 8, 2010.

After that, I have a few things to take care of. I have deadlines to catch for projects and all that crazy stuff for the University. Other than that, I also have to start applying for potential law schools that I might go to.

More so, I have a thesis to take care of, on-the-job training among other things.

So yeah, I'm quite busy... as always. *sigh*

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Art of Lip Locking PDF File version 01

2010-09-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

Finally!

It's released!

I'm giving you guys a chance to download my Boys Over Flowers SoEul fanfiction entitled The Art of Lip Locking. It's a short story, if you must know...

And it's actually R=18 because of... erm... Byuntae content. ROFL.

Anyways, the content isn't that explicit because I'm not an expert in writing stuffs like those. But I decided to rate it R=18 because of the sexual implications.

WARNING: It's a bit OOC (Out of Character). You have been warned.

If you wish to download it... Click Here!

Also, you can try the link at the right side of this blog, under the title 'Downloads', you can also find the download link there.

regards,
shatteredteardrops

DRABBLE #02

2010-09-25T02:18:00.001+08:00

September 24, 2010 - In the Living Room

Some things need not be announced, proclaimed, stated, declared or even spoken out loud… What’s most important is what’s happening underneath all the pretentious words and actions, what’s unspoken and hidden beneath the surface, what we deem as the things that matter the most…

You and I both know… That after the game, after the chase, after all the manly charade you play in front of your so-called friends, you’d be here with me, sharing a snack or two while listening to the bands we both like.

This isn’t even love, it’s not even… anything.

You don’t know I like you. I don’t know if I like you. But I know as hell you don’t like me the way I hope you’d like me.

It’s like this one huge mass of chaos; messy, disorganized, unruly… Yet everything seemingly just falls into place the moment we’re in each other’s presence.

It’s like… being in an orderly state of chaos; a comfortable kind of chaos, might I add, the kind of chaos that you and I both share and prefer over any other sort of chaos.

We’re friends.

We got each other’s back.

For others, friendship is a treasure; to some, it is a boundary.

And for us?

Has friendship ever stopped us from sharing a comforting kiss when no one was looking? Has friendship ever stopped us from acting like two love-struck idiots inside a room-full of half-asleep students in Psychology class? Has friendship ever stopped us from being who we really are from each other?

What exactly is our friendship all about?

I badly wanted to clear every unspoken issue between us. It's been bugging me for days! I never realized how much everything mattered to me... And now, although I don't know if I'm actually in love with you, I'm starting to get really scared of the thought of losing you...

“Hey…” I finally broke free from the thoughts that were swarming uncontrollably inside my head. Funny, I seem to have been dazing off to dream-like thoughts these past few days. Of course, I hope you didn’t notice.

“Hmmm?” You asked while lying down on my lap with your eyelids closed. Have I ever told you how much I adored your eyelashes? They’re a spectacular sight up-close.

“Raph…” I spoke your name out loud.

“Hmmm?” You replied again.

“Raphael…” I spoke louder this time, calling your whole attention to me.

“Yeah?” You finally opened your eyes and stared back at me with a quizzical look on your face.

“Are we… Are we friends?” I tried to choke out more complicated words to ask a more complex question but the only thing that came out of my mouth was the question about our friendship.

You suddenly sat up and looked straight into my eyes as you sat in front of me. Without any warning, I felt your lips on mine in a brief and feathery kiss. It was your answer. It didn’t need words. It didn’t need any confirmation… but for me, that wasn’t enough.

I wanted to hear it from you.

“That wasn’t an answer…” I stated what was obvious.

“Of course not… I just wanted to kiss you.” You replied with a playful smile tugging at the corner of your lips.

This is getting painstakingly upsetting. Here I was, baring and betting everything I feel inside and yet, here you are, playfully teasing me. I hate that smile even though I feel butterflies in my stomach every time I see it.

“So what are we?”

You smiled genuinely this time and took my hand in yours.

“In front of them, we’re friends…” You said. “But as long as we’re with each other, Anthony, we know that we’re more…”

-//-//-//-//-//-

I don't actually know where I got the idea for this drabble but somehow, I ended up writing a confrontational dialogue between lovers who are both male. There is a transition from friends to lovers in this drabble and personally, I find it endearing...

As for the issue of sexuality, well, I don't really have much to say. My philosophy in life is to do whatever makes you happy, as long as it doesn't hurt other people in the process. I'm a pretty open-minded person so yeah...

Tsk, tsk... Who would have thought I would be able to come up with a rather very random drabble about sexuality? Free-writing does that to you. You just allow your mind to think of whatever it wants and allow your fingers to do the talking for you... haha

Free-writing... Hmmm... I like the sound of that. =) I'd definitely do it more often if I get more time.

P.S. I will be releasing the PDF File of The Art of Lip-Locking tomorrow!

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Art of Lip Locking PDF File Coming Soon!

2010-09-22T10:43:00.000+08:00

Yep, you read right guys!

I'm going to release a PDF version of my short SoEul fanfiction entitled Art of Lip Locking. keke

When?

Well, I was thinking of releasing it this weekend.

Why?

I was browsing through my files in my handy-dandy flashdisk the other day and realized that I haven't made a PDF file for Art of Lip Locking unlike my other stories. I re-read the whole thing and got so engrossed that I decided it deserved to be saved as a PDF file for distribution. hehe

So you guys better watch out for the release of my SoEul short story PDF! It's Byuntae, by the way and is not suitable for younger readers. =)

See 'ya!

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Whoopie! KTC Update!

2010-09-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

Don Juan's Dilemma - Chapter 11 of Keeping the Casanova...

This Chapter didn't include SoEul. Why? Simple. They're still having a Lover's Quarrel and Ga Eul seems pretty upset so I decided to shift the spotlight towards Woo Bin and Jae Kyung for a little bit.

This Chapter also drops nukes about the sexual lives of the F4!!! *gasp* Got you, didn't I? keke

You may notice that this chapter isn't as comedic as the previous chapters because I'm trying to lay down the foundation for future conflicts within the story. Also, this chapter humanizes Don Juan a little bit. It gives us a glimpse of his vulnerability beneath the tough exterior. =)

I'm not going to say anything more about this chapter so you guys should just check it out. =)

Hope you like it!

Oh, and yeah, I've been meaning to write personal replies for the readers of Keeping the Casanova but I just don't seem to have that much free time. I'm in my Senior year in College so yeah... Am busy as hell.

Anyways, I finally found some time to write personal replies! YAY ME!! XD

So, for those who commented on Chapter 10 of Keeping the Casanova, here are the replies! =)

__krazydaisy96 - I PAWN ANOTHER SILENT READER!!! Bwahahahaha!!! teehee Sorry for that. It's just that, I feel like I've done something really great to be able to make silent readers comment. =) Thank you for reading my story! I apologize for the slow updates... Blame school for that. T_T But I'm still updating no matter what, right? At least... Oh, and yeah, you've been added to the PM List!

__inday_yu - Ga Eul is a sweet girl and the baby is adorable but she's still mad at Yi Jung, right? hehe As for the mother, well, let's just say I've got things planned up for later... =)

__SwtAznStar18 - Oh yeah... Infidelity is really something that's hard to forgive... I haven't experienced it first hand but that would really feel like shit... *shrug* Hopefully, it's not Yi Jung's child.

__ 01x_baybee - Including an innocent baby in a possible prank isn't fun. =(

__Baby_joon15 - You think Ji Eun is the mother? Hmm... I'd rather not comment. Bwahaha! I'm evil like that, yo!

__xxSanityx - Glad I made your day! Hopefully, I made your day with this update too! =)

__iHEARTTyooh - Yeah... But our Ga Eul is strong so hopefully, she gets through all of this and finally have her honeymoon with Yi Jung. XD I'm so looking forward to the honeymoon!

__nina218 - Thank you. I'm trying to update when I can... Well, I'm still struggling. *sigh*

__sylvia_psf - Han Byul belongs to...? ME!! XD Joking, joking... =)

__isdupt15 - But of course Ga Eul is motherly! She and Yi Jung are going to have a baby in the future after all... keke But of course, honeymoon first. XD

__syalovee - I don't want Ga Eul heartbroken too! That would definitely break my heart! =(

__jaequeen - Glad you liked that part! I loved writing it too! haha Jae Kyung and Woo Bin make an awesome pair! XD

__lildragongurl - Well, what's a good story without some conflicts to go with it, right? I'm trying to build up some conflict hence the depressing start. keke But it'll all fall into place... eventually. =)

__alasdair_vahn - The mother's reaction is different than what you guys expected, right? Well, it's not really because I'm being inconsistent with her character. It's just that... I'm humanizing her. Some fics always has the scary mother but I'd rather have the character of a mother with a complex personality other than just plain scary or evil. =) I'm weird like that so don't mind me. keke

__kly8 - I'm hoping it's not Yi Jung's child too! Then whose is it?!

__corrupted.soul - Woo Bin + Jae Kyung = WIN!! haha You agree, right? *winks*

__wlimilk - The Sweden guy will come out again... In the future chapters. Let's just reveal one thing at a time, shall we? *winks* You've been added to the PM List!

__teresaa- - Babies. F4. Amnesiac. Monkey slave. If I didn't know what you were talking about, I'd probably think you'd gone looney! haha And to be honest, I don't think everything is coming together yet... I'm weird, I know. =)

__ yeongweonhi02stary - Glad you liked the end! I had fun writing that! haha

__paradoxist - I'll ask the same question back to you! Whose baby is it?! haha

__ trippi - You've been added to the PM List! Thank you for reading! =)

__dee:) - Babies are always cute, right? I love babies! Ji Eun's background and development will come later though... I'm struggling about which pairing to prioritize... Although I love SoEul, Jae Kyung and Woo Bin are irresistible! Argh! What painful dilemma! haha

__swtxlilqt95 - Yi Jung's Mom? Hmm... I won't answer that... haha Technically, Ji Hoo and Woo Bin doesn't have girlfriends yet... Just potential ones. XD

__Mizz_Ana_cutez - I apologize for the short Chapter 10. I'll admit it was a rushed chapter. I had to make with what little time I had. Hopefully, I'll have more time to write in the future. =)

__babsy10 - More like... I'm the evilest author because I gave them problems within the first few months of their marriage. LOL. keke

__batta - Was the baby planted by Yi Jung's Mom? Or is she Ji Eun's daughter? wahaha I'm toying with your mind! keke joking! XP

__noona - She'll come through it! Our Ga Eul is strong! HWAITING!!

__ iaimeyouS2 - haha I know, right? This is a completely different Ji Hoo than the one we saw on TV! But he's more fun! XD

__Ahr3um - Glad you like it! hehe Don't worry. You're already added to the PM List so you'll get a PM every time I post a chapter. =)

__cookielover - You've been added to the PM List! Thanks for reading!

__aliceex - Babies are lovable so who wouldn't be attached. hehe Well, Ji Hoo seemed the most dependable out of the F4. Who would have thought that he was the sneakiest? LOL.

__shar0nsaurus - Thank you for reading! =)

__Trixie9394 - As I've said, Jae Kyung and Woo Bin are awesome! haha Sure, you've been added to the PM List! Thank you for reading!

___mangga2711 - Apology accepted. And I, too, would like to apologize for taking so long to update... Life gets really hectic sometimes... *sigh*

___virtuosorosiny - F4 Babies = The Next Generation = WIN!!! I like the idea of that! haha I can just imagine the F4 trying to deal with their teenage daughters and sons... Hopefully, they get to be in-laws! That would be so cool! XD

__pers3as - Thank you! Glad you love my stories... =) It's really hard for me to have a fixed update time right now because I'm in my Senior Year in College. School is top priority so yeah... Hope you understand.

__belle6022 - Omo! haha Is this another Jae Kyung and Woo Bin shipper I see? *wiggles eyebrow* I see a sister in you! XD

__ rawrritsgracex3 - Not yet... Technically, Woo Bin and Ji Hoo don't have official girlfriends yet, remember? haha Nah... I don't think Jae Kyung and Woo Bin would include a baby in their plan... The baby's a person, not a toy... hehe You've been added to the PM List, by the way! Thanks for reading!

To everyone, thank you so much for the continued support!
I apologize for the slow updates...
Life really gets so hectic sometimes. =(

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Whoah!!

2010-09-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

I've got two things to discuss; one bad news and one good news (sort of).

Let's start with the bad news first, okay?

My Winglin account for The Crimson Insignia wouldn't let me log-in for an update or even to maintain my account. I've asked help from the Moderators of the Fanfic Community Forum but up until now, I just can't log-in to post a new chapter.

Even my accounts for Ignominy, Capturing the Casanova and Bittersweet Reunion are having problems. I can't log-in unto them. This is one of the reasons why I decided not to post Keeping the Casanova at Winglin. They randomly disable user accounts.

My Winglin account for TCI is already a few chapters behind from the one posted at Soompi.

I've already emailed a moderator to fix this problem tonight but if this problem persists, I will have to abandon my Winglin account for Ignominy and The Crimson Insignia... Hopefully, that doesn't happen... (keeps fingers crossed)

On the other hand, Soompi has all the latest chapters of TCI.

As for Asianfanfiction and Fictionpress, well, I still don't have much time to post up all the chapters yet... But I will be posting them up in a bunch within the following days.

For the readers of The Crimson Insignia who are reading at Winglin, you can still continue reading TCI at Soompi Forums (you have to register), at Asianfanfiction.com or at Fictionpress.com. =)

Now, onto the good news!

Lookie!
I checked my mediafire account today and the download count for my BOF fanfiction story Capturing the Casanova reached a whopping 1013 downloads!

I was seriously surprised! =)

Thank you so much for reading Capturing the Casanova! keke
You guys don't know how much this made me really happy!

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Impending Face-Off...

2010-09-10T21:04:00.000+08:00

Chapter 34 of The Crimson Insignia...

I know this chapter isn't much, that's why I'm going to admit that it's a filler chapter. It fills the gaps between key situations I've planned for the story. If I could compare this chapter into the engine of the car, well, let's just say that it would be the cables and wires connecting the different machines inside the car that make up the engine. It's small, long, winding and tangled... but it connects everything. =)

Hopefully, you guys enjoy this because I will be dropping nukes in the next chapters after this one! And when I say nukes, of course, not only do I mean action nukes but comedic ones as well. =) I gotta tell you, guys, if you're reading a story written by me... you have to expect the unexpected.

I love twists! =)

By the way, I will be off for a 3-day Educational Trip to Manila next week. I won't bring my laptop with me and thus, that's going to three days without sneaking off to write anything. *sigh*

Now, unto the replies!

REPLIES:

___-quiescent - LOL. Whaddya know? Taiki is a Miharu&Shin shipper! haha Thanks for the comment! XD

___cahaya - Whoah... I'm so jealous. T.T I don't even know if I'll have a chance to visit South Korea...

___LOO5LOO - haha If I make them kiss more often then it wouldn't be as special, right? *winks* I'm not really good with portraying subtleties so I keep the romance slowly building. It's more... thrilling that way, I guess. XD

___STEPHiiiEx3 - Shin and Miharu moments will come waaaaaaay later... but what's important is, they'll come. =)

___asianekawaii - Omo... Really? The secret meaning behind the kiss on the forehead is 'he trusts her'? I didn't know that... Thanks!

___betty_7_30 - I'd say the prankster is very obvious... Oh, I updated on your birthday?! Erm... Belated Happy Birthday!!!

___miss_dolly - I guess we can safely conclude that all spies are sneaky... And Shin is sneaky in a good way... right? XD

___seorero - Taiki's role from the very beginning has been the comic relief. He's supposed to be the annoying character. haha Besides, he's still lovable. XD

___popo_chan_xo - You've been added to the PM List! Thank you for reading! =) Akira? The brother? I wouldn't really proclaim that yet... The identities are still not known. haha As for the brother, well, there's a reason why he can't take over the yakuza clan... *winks*

___Princess_Wincyy - Did Taiki want to make them jealous? Well, I doubt he wanted to... But he sure did want to mess with them a little! =)

___SHINEjaejoong - I think the identity of the prankster has been obvious right from the start... haha

___SwtAznStar18 - Pent up frustration? I kind of like the idea of that... It's like a volcano... It just suddenly errupts! Oh, how I would enjoy writing the scene when everything simply errupts! Bwahaha! I shall build more frustrations 'til then. =)

___rainn - Ooooohhh... Welcome! Hope you enjoy reading! XD

___beef taco - I have a fondness for lines that make people melt and gooey... haha Shin was heart-melting, wasn't he? *winks*

___xXKymmXx - You're welcome! Hope you liked it! =)

___teresaa- - It sucks when I want to write but things seems to messed up and busy. T_T Makes me sad sometimes... huhu But I'm trying my best to write. Hopefully, I get more free time...

___babsy10 - Her bike's tires got spiked... Tsk... Stupid prankster.

___leighannechan - Glad you liked it! A kiss is always a welcomed scene, isn't it? LOL. Thank you!

___dyang4 - He sure did show them! haha

___xsweeetzx - You've been added to the PM List! Thank you for reading! Oh, and good luck on catching up! =)

___Ashling - LOL. YOU MADE ME LOOOOOOOL BIG TIME! HAHAHAHA =)

___LeeYan1025 - Oh... I Soeul fan! Hello! You've been added to the PM List! =) Ermm... Although, I have to warn you that this is very different from the soeul stories I write... You've been warned. =) And Welcome!

Hope you guys enjoyed this update! =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

My Schedule

2010-08-29T00:31:00.001+08:00

for the coming month of September...

Well, looks like I'm going to be little more busy than usual. (Let's assume I'm still not that busy enough. Ugh.)

September 13-15 - Educational Trip around Manila.

Also, I was hoping to come to the following events:

September 11 - Food Fest at friend's neighborhood + Sleepover (I was told to keep this date free.)
September 24 - Cosplay Competition sponsored by IICT in our University.

I really want to join a Cosplay competition even just once in my entire life so I'm going to be working on my costume during my free time. I was planning to cosplay Enma Ai from Hell Girl (Jigoku Shoujo). Costume is still on planning stages. I haven't canvassed the cloths to be used and I haven't even decided where to have it made.

I told you I'm busy. Hn.

Update on write-ups:

TCI Chapter 34 is almost done.
KTC Chapter 11 has not yet been started.

Tentative date of update: Next Weekend.
Hopefully, you guys can wait 'til then. =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

A Beginning and an End...

2010-08-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

To all of you who has bothered to even check out this blog by a measly College student-slash-fanfic writer-slash-graphics designer-slash-fangirl, I have an announcement to make...

My Graphics Site - Sinful Indulgence - is officially closed.

I realized that being a Senior in College isn't easy and try as I might, my time is largely spent on lots of activities at school, within school or school-related.

I dedicate what little free time I have to writing, which, I must say, isn't much. And if I were to squeeze in Graphics Designing, I simply have to give up either of the two.

Choosing between Writing and Graphics Designing is like choosing between DBSK and Big Bang. It's hard, it's frustrating and it's heartbreaking. =(

After a month of deliberation, mostly against myself, I finally decided to give up Graphics Designing indefinitely. It's heart-breaking because I have been so in-tuned with Photoshopping that giving it up was like giving up a limb. I feel as if a body part of mine was severed... =(

On the other hand, I would like to announce a beginning.

Last month, in light of all the haters that spammed my formsprings with passionate revulsion, I secretly started a personal blog where I can vent my frustrations and personal dilemma.

I realized that blogging has been a big part of me that whenever I feel surreal and overwhelming emotions, I put them into use and speak through my blog. Well, since I decided to make this blog professional and solely dedicated to all my stories, it has been tough for me.

However, ever since I started my other blog, I've felt quite content and happy for myself. =) At least, there were no people to bother me and judge me without knowing me personally.

So, even though I've announced the existence of a secret blog, I'd like to keep that blog to myself. Thank you very much for respecting my privacy. =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

[Book Review] It's Not You, It's Me

2010-08-16T05:33:00.000+08:00

Title: It's Not You, It's Me
Author: Allison Rushby

What do you think of when you hear the line, “It’s not you, it’s me…”?

For me? Personally, I think of those scenes in movies or novels where either one of the main characters start up with this line, and then usually, the next step would be along the lines of a cool off or a break-up or good-bye.

However, in Allison Rushby’s “It’s Not You, It’s me”, the whole reason why those lines were spoken were a little different than what I would have or maybe, some other women would have imagined.

The story revolves around two characters, Charlotte “Charlie” Notting and Jasper “Jas” Ash a.k.a. Zamiel, bisexual, beastiality-drawn, devil worshipper, rockstar-slash-sex-god vocalist of Spawn, one of the hottest bands in the scene.

Charlie is a struggling fine arts major who does sculpting during her free time. Jas, on the other hand is a music student aiming to be a song-writer someday. Now, because of some twist of fate, they happen to share an apartment together as roommates in an apartment complex occupied mostly by aged tenants.

During the course of their life in one apartment, it came to a point that their neighbors referred to them as Charlie and Jas, the young couple or Charlie and Jas, the newly married couple. Well, even though they weren’t really married, and much less, they weren’t even a couple. But the misconception didn’t really bother any of them so they never tried to correct it.

Apparently, their stay at the apartment was short-lived because the apartment complex where they stay was scheduled to be demolished and replaced by a more modern apartment complex by the end of the year. And so, all the tenants were asked to move out. Charlie was going to stay with her mother and Jas was scheduled to go to Sydney and meet up with a producer who’s going to sign him up. Both of them knew that they were going to go on their separate ways once they leave the apartment.

Now, although they were sharing a flat, Charlie always had people or friends visiting over during the Saturdays or during weekends. She was outgoing. On the other hand, Jas hardly had any visitors at all. Well, most of the time that they were sharing the flat, Jas never did have any other visitors coming over… until he changed.

Suddenly, girls were coming over during Saturdays, sleeping the night over. Every week it’s a different girl; sometimes blonde, sometimes strawberry blonde and one time, a girl close to a brunette. All these girls stay there up until midday. Sometimes, Jas doesn’t even come home. All this while, Charlie decidedly put up with it.

Of course, after months of living with each other and Jas suddenly acting up like a playboy-extraordinaire, feelings were bound to be realized. Charlie realized that she had fallen in love with Jas. But like any other novel, she knew that they were bound to separate ways by the end of the year. And she assumed that Jas didn’t feel the same way towards her judging from the girls he was bringing home.

Three days before they moved out of the apartment, news came that one of their elderly neighbors died of stroke. It came as a shock to both Charlie and Jas, of course, since even though their neighbors were mostly elderly people, they cared for each other like family. That night, Charlie and Jas shared a bed… but not because something happened between them. They just slept.

In the middle of the night, it came to a point where Charlie took the initiative and kissed Jas out of attraction. After all, Jas was a pretty nice guy. Thus, Charlie started a long overdue make-out session with Jas… They were half-way through and was on their way to the next level when Jas suddenly stopped Charlie’s aggressiveness.

“It’s not you… It’s me.” Jas said. It was the truth. Charlie didn’t have a problem, he did. And whatever that problem was, he simply could not tell her.

But then Charlie took it the wrong way. She thought that it was a guy language for, “It’s not me, it’s you… You’re just not pretty enough. You’re just not enough, etc.” She hastily left with her bruised pride that night and they both left the apartment without ever having a chance to have a decent talk with each other.

Jas called but Charlie never answered and returned his calls.

Three years later, Charlie was boarding a plane to Germany for a vacation trip that was given to her as a gift. By all odds, she met the least person she expected to see: Jasper Ash, now popularly known as “Zamiel”, vocalist of famous rock band Spawn.

Acting on impulse, Charlie invited Jas to join her on her European tour. So, he did…

Amidst, crazy stalking groupies, beer-hogging tourists and a hell lot of chaotic situations, will they be able to sort out their issues before their five day tour is over and they both have to part ways again?

The writing is witty, funny and hecka lot of entertaining. It’s not the kind of novel which ultimately stretches out the sex with colorful words but instead, it highlights the events between Charlie and Jas as they rediscover each other and catch up on their unfinished business.

It’s a wild roller coaster ride all packed in a 280-page book.

The characters are witty, entertaining and have depth. They’re just like ordinary people dealing with not-so-ordinary circumstances, and despite all the odds against them, they still manage to push through. It’s a fun read if you’re a fan of light-hearted romances. I personally found myself involuntarily smiling and chuckling to myself as I was reading this.

You guys should check it out! =)

Regards,
shatteredteardrops

TCI Chapter 33: Tension

2010-07-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

Finally! I get some time to update! =)

Chapter 33 of The Crimson Insignia is finally out! After more than a month of no update...
I know, I know... I apologize. Life has been a little... distracting for me especially since school started last June. I've been busy since I'm in my last year in College. Being a Senior isn't exactly as easy as it sounds... It's a crucial time for me...

Anyways, enough of that depressing drama about my life. What's important is that I actually conjured up an update! =)

As for the replies, here goes:

__pkv - Yep, Shin and Pride are about to meet. But I've decided to hold back the meeting first because I need to settle a few crucial things. keke

__SHINEjaejoong - You remember the girl with whom Shin and Miharu went on a double date with Ryou? The same girl that Miharu saw Reiko was bullying? That's Asuka-chan. hehe Oh, and she wears glasses too. =)

__cahaya - As usual, thank you for the detailed comment! Btw, I hope you had fun on your trip to Korea! =)

__simpleangel - Aside from liking Ryou, Asuka is part of the Black Bandits. That's all the information I can give you now. More shall be revealed about her though. *winks*

__dyang4 - I know, right? haha It's a horrible way to wake up! XD I'm going to... uh, well, shall we say, put more tension between Miharu and Shin. It'll spice up everything. XD

__xXKymmXx - And thank you, too... for the comment. =)

__mangoes_ - Thank you! I spent almost five hours on that trailer because I was such a noob on using Sony Vegas. haha

__ nalouche - I actually made Lt. Nakamura's character to find wicked humor in rather complicated situations. Sadly, I could not write more of her since she's just a supporting character. Given the chance though, I'd like to expand her character more. =)

__ shushshuckspui - Well, a story without a villain girl vying for the attention of a guy wouldn't be so exciting now, would it? haha Asuka plays that part.

__ -quiescent - Thank you! Glad you liked it. You've been added to the PM List! Welcome to the world of the The Crimson Insignia! =)

__ betty_7_30 - Asuka is the girl with whom Miharu and Shin together with Ryou had a double date with in the previous chapters. =)

__miss_dolly - I hope nothing bad happens to Shin, too... After all, Miharu is not the only one with a mysterious birth. keke *winks*

__Princess_Wincyy - Who invited Ryou? Well, he's part of the Sinners, isn't he? haha

__curiousitykills - Thank you! Glad it's worth the wait... hehe Although, I must admit, it's long overdue, would you agree? I know, I'm sorry.

__LOO5LOO - Of course, there's always a place for you in the PM List! =)

__ teresaa- - Sorry if the gunshot scared you. I know it was kind of... scary? LOL. I was shocked when I finished the whole trailer too... because of the gun shot even though I made the whole trailer by myself. Don't ask why. I'm weird. I get weirded out by myself. LOL.

__asianekawaii - You've been added to the PM List! Thank you! Glad you liked my story! =)

__s0fi3/seorero - Reiko is a tad more playful than Miharu... She likes challenges so she's going to get the prankster for fun... If you could call that fun. *shrug* This is the main difference between Miharu and Reiko. Miharu is head-strong. Reiko is just... petty and playful. I've also changed your name in my PM List! =)

__STEPHiiiEx3 - I agree. Shin totally loved the kiss. XD haha

__babsy10 - It's alright. =) Still, thank you for taking time to tell me what you think. School really is a major hassle for students. I can't believe I'm going to study for four more years after College. Ugh.

__ samanatha_xyooj - You've been added to the PM List! Glad you liked my story! XD

__ streetpunks - Really?! *grin* I got you all night reading my story? *grin* But wait... Are you a student? Were you reading on a weekday with a class in the morning? Tsk, tsk... I don't want to be a bad influence. Just sayin' that I appreciate that you like my story. Just don't overdo reading it, hmkay? =)

__SwtAznStar18 - And thank you for combining two comments for the chapters you missed! Thank you! I really appreciate reading what you think! =) Yep, it's going to be complicated if she finds out about her true heritage... She's already the daughter of the Prime Minister. She'd be a more powerful girl if she found out about her yakuza connections... I'd say Miharu would be really scary.

__LoveItLiveIt - Thank you! Glad you like it! =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

I'm sorry!

2010-07-25T20:29:00.001+08:00

I promised to update Saturday but up until now I haven't updated!! I'm so sorry!! The internet connection was whacked out yesterday! I wasn't able to access the world wide web and I was stuck at home to take care of things because my mom was sick (since I'm the eldest daughter and all, I was left to be in charge)... And my younger sister was nowhere to be found... She had to attend a debut party which was held in some hotel I forgot which one. (She seriously picked yesterday to be out of the house when mom was sick!! Arrrgghghhh!!)

Anyways, last night, since I couldn't access the net, I had to make do with whatever I have at the moment so I sufficed to have a movie marathon by myself to pass time. *sob* Yes, I was alone.

If I had enough time today, I would have updated... But you see, tomorrow is Monday which means, there's a class... Which means I have to sleep at ten because I have to wake up early.

I'll try to squeeze in an update next week... Hopefully, before my midterm exams on the first week of August...

Anyways, here's a picture of me... taken by my younger brother last night. I know I'm fuggly but what the hell? I don't care!! It's the real me... I don't like pleasing anybody...

This is usually how I look when I'm at home... Completely different from the picture of me with make-up on. (Completely ugly, mediocre, mock-worthy and plain, in my opinion.) I like wearing lose t-shirts and sweatpants because they're comfortable. =)

I'll update when schedule allows me!! I promise!!

I'm really sorry!! It's because of the friggin' whacked out internet connection yesterday that I wasn't able to update! The weather was kinda bad too... so that was probably the reason why phone lines were a little messy at the moment...

regards,
shatteredteardrops

I'll update later!

2010-07-24T06:36:00.000+08:00

teehee...

Just a quick update on what I've been up to. Just attended our course acquaintance party last night. I still haven't had a wink.

I would like to announce that I'll update later today! Maybe tonight? keke I'll update TCI and maybe Ignominy but as for KTC, I still have to finish writing the rest of the chapter. =)

As a bonus for this really quick and small update, here's a picture of me at our acquaintance party. No censorship this time. =)

Me and April. (Taken by camphone)
I'm wearing make-up! *gasp*

No, really... I don't like wearing make-up... But I had to because I'm part of the dance group for the dance competition and we had to wear make up so that our faces won't be too pale when we perform...

Yes, I'm wearing a polo shirt... Yes, I know that it's a sort of formal gathering and I'm wearing casual clothes again. Who cares?

Oh, and yeah... We won!!! XD

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Hectic Week

2010-07-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

I've been moving nonstop since Monday and I could really use a little rest... Well, if that's available. Unfortunately, no. Ugh...

Aside from the usual school stuff, we have this Political Science Acquaintance Party this coming Friday, it's going to be held at night at Sarabia Manor Hotel, and we're probably going to go bar-hopping after.

Anyways, there's going to be a dance competition for the Acquaintance party and it just so happened that I am one of the dancers representing the 4th year students. Yeah, yeah, I know. It's a tiring job...

We've been practicing since last week and that has made me awfully worn out these past few days. Not to mention the fact that I have cough, flu and earlier today, I was warm with fever. Stressed out? Sure, you can say that.

Anyways, good news is... I'm on a roll! =)

What I mean is, I'm on a writing roll. keke I've finished one chapter for Ignominy, one chapter for TCI and I'm half-way through the newest Chapter of KTC. For all it's worth, I think I'll update Saturday evening at least.

I've always thought that my writing skills work better when I'm stressed. So far, I think I'm right. LOL. So, yeah... That's about it.

See 'ya guys on Saturday evening! I'll be updating then! =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Blogging...

2010-07-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

At first, this blog became my Author's Blog for the stories I've written. I intended it as a place for me to interact with my readers and update them about what's happening with my life outside writing. It's also a way for them to know what I've been up to or what's the reason why I haven't updated lately...

Through this blog, I found out that it can also be an emotional outlet for all the angst and drama that life throws at me... So aside from being my Author's Blog, I've decided to post entries about my personal life... I didn't think people would actually take time to read the angsty post of a student. LOL.

But then, things got out of hand.

I'm being hated for not doing anything wrong to anyone which I think, is really unfair. I'm being judged guilty without giving the benefit of doubt. But it's fine. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion...

I'm a pretty patient, calm and open-minded person, aside from the fact that I have high EQ (Emotional Quotient). I also have high tolerance for stress-causing situations.

I'm going to handle this the way which I think is best.

I've decided to keep things strictly professional around here. I'm going to revert this blog back as my Author's blog. My updates are going to be solely about my write-ups, stories, drabbles, and fiction-finds.

I deem it really low and unprofessional when people lose their cool and begin spouting malicious accusations against another. I'm a debater and I guess, I've trained myself to be indifferent and cool with things even if they're getting out of hand.

Know this, if you have nothing good to say, keep it to yourself. =) The less you say, the less mistakes you commit.

Also, don't be surprised if some of the personal posts I've written before will disappear. I'm going to keep them private from now on. I'm not going to do this because I'm hiding anything. If I was hiding anything, why would I have made this blog?

I'm going to hide my personal posts so as put a stop to whatever irrelevant issues that some people began. =)

Also, for the formspring people, I'm not going to answer any more questions related to Moon Chan Sung. From now on, I'm only going to answer questions, queries about my stories and write-ups. I'm also going to censor the inappropriate questions so as to minimize non-professionalism. =)

Thirdly, for my readers who are waiting for my updates, I'm kind of busy at the moment. I have to work on three case digests which I haven't even started yet... And I have to do a bunch of other stuffs for our school organization and as a university debater, I have a debate convention which needs facilitating.

You can imagine all the other extra-curricular activities I have which leaves me occupied throughout the week. Sadly, this does not give me enough time to pay so much attention to haters.

Fourth, watch out for the new Rom-Com I'm working on! I think I'll post it on September of October of this year at least! teehee. I still have to finish three on-going stories of mine so... I'm not so sure about the schedule of release! I'm excited though! =)

Fifth, OH MY GOSH... You guys should read this: She Had Somewhere To Go by S.L. Gunn @ FictionPress! The angst, the drama, the sexual tension, the teasing... Just wow. One of these days, if I get enough free time, I'm going to finish reading it and write a proper review. It's really good!

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Work + Claim + Formspring Anons!

2010-07-04T05:20:00.000+08:00

Hooookkkaaaayyyyy...

I just finally finished designing and coding my Graphic Site's new lay-out after roughly four hours of working on it. *whew*

But then, I remembered that I have to make a case digest for our Intro to Law subject at school. That paper is due Monday. It's currently 6:06 AM and I just spent the whole night awake... which would probably mean that I would be spending the whole day today asleep.. Which in turn, would mean, less time for me to work on my paper!!

Damn it... I should have just worked on it before working on the lay-out!

Hmm... What else?

Oh, yeah! I've already poster Chapter 09 of Keeping the Casanova! XD It's been so long since I've actually written something that I kind of missed it... hehe

Next agenda: Work on TCI!!

But that would be after all the stuff at school that I need to do. *sigh*

What else?

AHA!! I just claimed TOP for myself on Asianfanfiction.com! Lucky~~~!!

Asianfanfiction.com is actually a website for writers, much like Winglin but with an entirely different interface. So, there's this Bishounen Cafe challenge where Writers are encouraged to claim their man.

If a writer claims her man, she is obliged to write a one-shot featuring him as a worker in a cafe called Bishounen Cafe. The writer would be free to write whatever kind of story she likes. And what's unique about this challenge is that, once the man (male artist) has been claimed, other writers can't claim him anymore.

So... I'm lucky to have claimed TOP for myself!! Muhahahaha! I was aiming for Jae Joong but someone else has claimed him already so... Since TOP is my personal slave, I guess he's next to my husband! XD

And... What else?

Oh, yeah... I would like to talk about the Formspring Anons that are hardcore fans of Moon Chan Sung. teehee...

I know that for every story we read, we always hope for a happy ending. Personally, I'm a reader myself so, I understand this line of thinking. And added the fact that we're girls, we're emotionally soft and I'd have to admit that sometimes, we hope for a fairytale ending to the story of our own lives.

I'm happy that through my story entitled, "in a Heartbeat", I was able to touch people's lives and make them understand what I went through.

It's just that, I think... It's time to move on.

The chapter of my life with Moon Chan Sung was long gone and over. We may have had contact these past few weeks, but that doesn't mean I'm going to allow him to be in my life again. It's not that easy... Circumstances have changed and a lot of people are involved.

I may have forgotten to tell you this but... the relationship between Moon Chan Sung and I, was entirely a secret. My parents didn't know about him because I belong in a very conservative family and although I'm already 19 years old, I'm still not allowed to have a boyfriend. My parents are that strict.

I don't want to lie to my parents again... Basically, I don't want to be hurt anymore.

For the Anons at Formspring, thank you for your effort and for taking an interest in my life. It's like you guys became my friends with whom I can gush and laugh with online, although I don't personally know you.

I understand that you would want to read about my happy ending with Moon Chan Sung... But as of now, I don't think that's possible.

I don't cross out the possibility of reconciliation between me and him.... But just not right now. You see, I'm already in my last year in College and I really want to make the best out of it. I've got decisions I need to make next year about where to study law and how to be an independent working student.

I don't need some love life drama right now. I just can't handle that yet.

However, I could assure you guys this: If in the future, Moon Chan Sung and I will cross paths again... And if the feelings are still there, I would give him a chance. And if I finally have the happy ending that you guys want, I will definitely write a sequel to "in a Heartbeat".

That's a promise.

Okies? =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

It's the weekend!

2010-06-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

Yay!

But then again, I have a few chores to finish so...

First off, I completed graphics request from my Graphic Site. I don't know why I still keep my Graphic Site running even though I barely have time for it. Hmm... Maybe because I've kept it since 2008 and because it's the only place I can display my Photoshopping skills? haha

Secondly, I started the draft for Chapter 09 of Keeping the Casanova. I haven't finished it yet and I don't know exactly when I'll update. I know readers are waiting but meeeehhh... sometimes, my laziness can get out of hand especially if I need to do a lot of things.

Third, well, I decided to join a networking business. I'm officially joining next week if I have enough funds for the capital which is 7, 450 Php. Now, that's a big sum of money already. For a College student like me, I don't know where I could get that sum. I guess I have to check my savings and borrow from a few friends.

This networking business was actually introduced to me by a friend who's also in it. So far, she's earning at least a thousand pesos per week and that's already good enough for a College student. And if you work harder and get more pay-ins under your name, you get more profit.

My mom is actually against it. She thinks it's a scam or something and you'll never get enough money back to compensate for your capital, but I've already made up my mind. I'm going to join and work in it part-time because I need the extra money. I need to save up because I'm on my last year of College.

Now, after College, I plan to take up Law. And that would, no doubt, need more funds. Education isn't exactly cheap. I don't want to be a burden to my parents anymore. I want to be independent. I'm already nineteen, turning twenty this year and I have yet to earn my own money.

Yes, I have never tried working for money in my entire life. And yes, I'm ashamed of that. So, I'm trying my best, although my mom is against it, to prove myself capable of earning. Hopefully, everything turns out well for me...

I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Oh, and on the bright side, if I join this networking business, I'm going to work with a 19-year old self-made millionaire. Yes, he's 19 too and he's already a millionaire. How cool is that? =) Oh, and he's hot too. That's one of the plus reasons why I wanted to join. haha

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Formspring me! + TCI Chapter 32

2010-06-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

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Ask me anything and I'll my best to answer honestly. =)
Just don't ask for spoilers about my stories because
I would not answer them. haha

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TCI Chapter 32: Friends and Foes

Whoah... It's been so long since I've posted an update. I apologize. Classes just started for me again two weeks ago and I'm still trying to get a fixed and somehow stable schedule where I could fit my writing in.

Good news is... my schedule is a bit lax!

Bad news is(are)... I'm a member of our University's Debating Team. I'm also the head officer for the creation of a Debate Society in our University. My sister and I just recently decided to do part-time work as tutors for grade school pupils.

Yes, I'm a bit busy at the moment.

REPLIES:

__cahaya -As usual, thank you for your detailed comment! =) You really are a fanfic addict, aren't you?

__dyang4 - You're welcome! haha I've got you intrigued, didn't I?

__potion - Oh, it's okay if you can't comment on every chapter. I'm a little lazy myself. =)

__pkv
"and shin basically told the grandpa that he likes her right?" -Yep. XD

__nalouche
" I'm a bit confused though I don't remember her saving him" - At the Charity Ball. Miharu risked her life just to get back to him since he was trapped in a room-full of bad guys. hehe

__simpleangel
"Sucks how he's still a bodyguard to her." - THIS. I agree.

__xXKymmXx - Thank you! Glad you liked it! =)

__TOPsarang
"about time they kissed =3=
--> i sound like a creeper" - Don't worry. You're not the only one thinking that! haha ILY too!

__miss_dolly - Thank you! Glad you liked the 'juicy' chapter. haha

__babsy10
"what a way to fess up his feelings to his future grandfather in law who is actually holding your pretty neck hahaha..." - I was cracking up with the 'pretty neck' part. teehee!

__betty_7_30 - Lt. Nakamura is such a meanie! haha But I loved that part. =)

__lady_luv
"lt nakamura just waits for long enough for miharu to respond to the kiss eh???
does miharu still have feelings for ryou?" - Haha Yes, Lt. Nakamura wanted to see some of the juicy parts as well. XD As for Miharu having feelings for Ryou, well, I think she's a bit confused. She hated the man for the last two years of her life and drastically changed herself to get even with him right?

__pinkslippers - Let me guess, the kiss scene blew your mind away? haha

__mangoes_ - Shin is ALWAYS cute. =3 I sound biased, don't I?

__Princess_Wincyy - Yay for Lt. Nakamura! XD

__SHINEjaejoong
"That must've been soooo awkward for Shin, since Lt SAW it!!!! Eeek!" - I don't know about Shin but if it were me, I would want to evaporate! Imagine a senior officer seeing you make-out. haha

__teresaa-
"you are so violent.
D;
YOU LET NAKAMURA INTERRUPT WHEN IT WAS GETTING HOT." - Mee? Violent? *innocent eyes* I didn't do anything bad. I just made Lt. Nakamura interrupt a make-out session. haha

__shushshuckspui
"omg my heart totally goes out for shin!!! (which i always imagine to be jaejoong)." - Jae Joong is my ~~self-proclaimed~~ husband! Awww... Shin has been doing so much...

__curiousitykills
"time to eliminate his ex-bf!
you just didn`t know how much i was craving for Shin and Miharu moments!" - When you say it like that, you almost sound like an assassin. haha Evil much?

__reddynamitez
"great chapter. especially the kissing scene.
it's about time. Why did the Lieutenant have to ruin the moment for?" - Because I wanted Lt. Nakamura to ruin it. haha I'm evil like that, yo! XD

__icecreamiie - Hiya! Glad you found me here too! hehe I rarely post up updates at FP anymore... I try when I get a lot of free time and that's very rare... Anyways, you're on the PM List now!

__BEBE_AN
"you have a way of making shin irresistible. if she doesn't want him, i'll take him : )" - You should know that you have a lot of competition for Shin. The other readers want him too. haha About the part where Shin murdered five people, the reason why I allowed Shin to shot them was his desperation. He was caught up in a lot of things. And this mistake was to show that Shin is merely human and he also makes mistakes. However, the truth will be revealed to him somewhere along the future chapters. =)

__s0fi3
"I stayed up till 12something in the morning trying to finish this today
but stayed up till 3 in the morning trying to get to chapter 18 yesterday:L
And being dead at school was all worth it" - I really appreciate the fact that you stayed up all night to read my story... But really, I'm a student myself. Being dead at school is not fun at all. haha When this happens to me, I usually fill myself with sugar and caffeine just to stay up. XD

To Everyone, thank you so much for the support!

regards,
shatteredteardrops

As a Graphics Designer and Writer...

2010-06-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

I write for self-expression.
I design graphics for self-expression.

I just didn't think that both hobbies would entail me to sacrifice too much of my time.

Writing takes up a few hours of my time. It starts with the brainstorming or planning the sequence or flow of a chapter. Next, of course, the chapter needs to be written and constructed. This part takes up most time. And finally, after producing a chapter, of course, it needs to be proof-read and edited. Most of the time, I make sure that the chapter I've just written will have less mistakes/errors/typos as possible but of course, I'm not perfect. And after starting to write, I realized that I can't just drop everything when I'm tired because the readers who have come to love my stories have become my responsibilities as well.

On the other hand, Graphics Designing, although to some may appear less demanding, is actually just as demanding as writing. I handle a Graphics Request Site which caters to writers who wish to have posters for their stories. In most cases, when I'm working on a poster request, being the meticulous OCD that I am, I make sure that the posters I make would be of high quality. And most of the time, when I don't like the poster I just made, I usually just delete it and start all over again, hence, I have to do more work than what is necessary.

Just this weekend, I planned to binge-write for my current on-going stories. That is until I discovered that I have three wallpaper requests and seven poster requests waiting for me. In total, I have ten graphics requests. So my initial plan of binge-writing was canceled to cater to the requests of other writers for posters.

Working two days in a row for graphics requests, not to mention, having a trip to the house of relatives from my mother's side of the family today, I am exhausted. I'm just beat and before I knew it, the weekend is over. It's Sunday today and tomorrow is Monday, and I have classes AGAIN.

I haven't written an update for my stories. I don't know when I'll have time again.

*sigh*

As a bonus, here are a few of the graphics requests I've done this weekend.

They're low quality because I just uploaded them on Blogger. I'm too lazy to actually put them up in an image-hosting site. meeeehhh... I'm just tired.

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Depression and Withdrawal...

2010-06-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

credits to yukiyukiko @ photobucket for banner.

I'm having an intense Prosecutor Princess Withdrawal. TT_TT

Let me set the record straight, I started watching Prosecutor Princess (PP) along side Cinderella Sister (CS) and Personal Taste (PT). Half-way through CS and PT, I stopped. Why? Because my mind was constantly wandering off to think of when the next soft subs of PP will be out. Yes, I watch PP by downloading the full HD HAN video and having soft subs from WithS2 Fansubs.

Mind you, while waiting for the subs, I dare not allow myself to peek at the uploaded and subbed videos on Viikii because I want the complete and highly detailed subbed version. ~~I'm THAT OCD when it comes to dramas.~~

Ahem, so yeah, as I was saying, now that Prosecutor Princess was done, I'm having a withdrawal syndrome. I constantly lurk at the PP Soompi Thread hoping for any positive PP-related news. Do you know how hard this is for me? I haven't experienced something like this since the So Yi Jung and Chu Ga Eul pairing from BOF!

*sigh*

Anyway, so yeah...
To let go of this illogical and emotionally-upsetting withdrawal, let me tell you why Prosecutor Princess is one of the best dramas I've seen.

Aahem...

Comparing PP to CS and PT, critics have said that PP is the worst-casted drama of all three. Why? Because the actors and actresses who have been casted on the series are nothing like the actors and actresses on the other two series. PT has Lee Min Ho who achieved phenomenal stardom from BOF. And CS has Moon Geun Young and idol Ok Taecyeon who both has somehow a solid fanbase to back them up for the ratings.

The only artist on PP to note was the main actress, Kim So Yeon who acted along side Lee Byung Hyun and Kim Tae Hee in the bug-budgeted production, Iris. Other than that, nada.

But how did Prosecutor Princess charm me?

One. Great character development.
Initially, through the first few chapters, I was constantly upset with Ma Hye Ri's personality. I was LITERALLY cursing at her for being such a clueless and completely unreliable person! And to think that she's a prosecutor and has a job to uphold in honor of the law! (I aim to be a lawyer someday so these issues really stir me up.) The part where her co-workers mocked her, I do believe she deserved it, but at the back of my mind, I didn't want her to suffer. She just needed to learn which things to prioritize.

Anyway, gradually, as the story progresses, Ma Hye Ri slowly matures into a person who learns to value things other than herself, fashion, shoes and bags. She learns to give more of herself to help the people around her. And through her growth as a prosecutor, she earns the respect of her co-leagues and even the admiration of the man she proclaimed to 'like' (Prosecutor Yoon Se Jun).

Two. Intriguing Plot.
What started out as a light-hearted story of a naive prosecutor slowly progresses into a story of mystery, deceit and lies when the past was suddenly intertwined with the present. This was in the form of the handsome and charming yet conniving lawyer Seo In Woo.

When Ma Hye Ri met Seo In Woo, everything seemed to have been purely coincidence. It's a little cliche but when I thought of how they met, everything seemed like pre-destined. To be honest, I guessed that maybe Seo In Woo had something for Hye Ri ever since she was small but only had the courage to pursue her now that he's a lawyer... I instantly thought it was cliche. But BOY was I wrong!

Three. Intense Inner Conflict.
For Ma Hye Ri, it was later revealed in the series that Seo In Woo was the son of Seo Dong Gun, the man accused to have killed someone 15 years ago when in fact, he wasn't even involved. And the truth was that, It was Hye Ri's Father who was present during the crime. And after 15 years, Seo In Woo was trying to clear his Father's name by pinning the crime on Hye Ri's Father.

Imagine, the friend you trusted so much, the only person you turn to when you're scared, in doubt or when you needed help, the very same person you unconsciously learned to love with all your heart... is actually the person who got close to you in order to get back at your Father.

And yet, even if Hye Ri was supposed to hate In Woo for his deceit, she could not find it in her heart knowing how he lived the last 15 years of his life... What was even more painful was the fact that she already loved him.

This intense inner conflict I'm talking about was greatly highlighted in the last scene of Episode 13, when Ma Hye Ri barged in on In Woo's room and accused him but in the end, she confessed her feelings to him. Personally, I cried during this scene. I didn't just sob, mind you. I'm not the type to be usually affected by dramas but for this particular scene, I cried with snot and tears, and the whole crying-out-loud thing. I was crying inside my room so nobody saw me. teehee. I was trying so hard to control my voice though.

As for Seo In Woo, for someone to have worked hard to finally clear his Father's name for the last 15 years of his life and finally, just when things were about to go as planned, he realized that he could not hurt the woman he used as a pawn, the very same woman who was the daughter of the man who escaped innocently while his Father was pinned down for a crime he did not commit.

This was especially highlighted when Seo In Woo had a drink with his childhood friend Jenny and was tearing up because he was being torn about what to do. On one hand, he wanted to fulfill his promise to his Father that he would clear his name; on the other is the happiness and heart of the woman he loved.

In Woo's inner torment can also be seen on Episode 14's elevator scene. It was the time when Seo In Woo and Hye Ri realized that they could never be together. This was a truly heartbreaking scene. Especially the shot before the elevator closed, when Ma Hye Ri looked at Seo In Woo and saw that tears were streaming down his face. Truly heartbreaking.

Four. Amazing Character Depth.
This isn't just your average Romantic Comedy and its characters aren't simple-minded people who are just for laughs. They're funny and comedic at times but they have depth. The characters weren't merely made for the sake of having characters. They were characters that have complex personalities in them, only waiting for the right actors/actresses to give them life.

Ma Hye Ri isn't just a naive and spoiled daughter. She's kind, genuine and caring. She may have been gullible but she was kind-hearted and honest. She was true and she understood very well what suffering Seo In Woo had gone through.

Seo In Woo isn't just your typical smooth-talking lawyer. He may appear harmless but he was, in fact, a very dangerous man to deal with. He's rich. He's got connections. He's meticulously smart. And he's conniving. He can plan a whole assault without letting anyone know that he was the puppet-master behind the plan.

Don't even get me started with the other supporting characters. We could go all night here. =)

Fifth. Effective and Capable Actors/Actresses.
Although some people considered this series as the worst-casted series compared to its other competitors in rating during the T-Th slot, I think they casting director was the best. They may not be idols or famous artists but they are capable ones. They brought the characters to life. They gave the characters depth.

Whenever I think of Prosecutor Princess, I think no one would ever be able Ma Hye Ri's character like Kim So Yeon did. It was amazing to see her previously acting as a cold-blooded assassin and then suddenly switch to a naive, outgoing, princess-like, spoiled prosecutor. Her expressions, her gestures, the way she spoke and even when she was crying, Kim So Yeon really gave Ma Hye Ri a life of her own. And for that, I really, really am amazed with her as an actress.

And for Seo In Woo, the handsome and charming of a lawyer that he is, who is smooth, cool and suave, but secretly harbors a heavy burden within his heart. Actor Park Shi Hoo really did give his character justice. The way he playfully teases Hye Ri yet leaves a sincere piece of himself; the way he would appear outgoing and carefree yet secretly suffers when Hye Ri wasn't around; actor Park Shi Hoo has got Seo In Woo nailed both in and out.

Sixth. Actor PARK SHI HOO. (a totally fan-girl reason)
I just had to add him in for one of the things that charmed me in this drama. I mean, come on! I'm a girl and even if he's 13 years my senior, I'm still drooling for him! Gosh! Who could resist that smile?! XD I'm pretty sure a lot of people would agree with me on this.

Aaaahhhh... I still miss Prosecutor Princess. I'm hoping for a Season 2 and more of Seo-Pyeon & Ma-Gom... But I don't know if the PD would allow it. *sigh*

DRABBLE #01

2010-06-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

June 1, 2010 - 9:32 PM - In my room.

I woke up with a drilling headache forcing my eyes to keep shut even though I was already wide awake. As I stretched my limbs to awaken my sleepy bones up, I felt something warm beside me... WAIT.

Someone is beside me.

My eyes fluttered open and stared blankly into the ceiling. 'This isn't my room...' I realized. I gulped nervously when something heavy suddenly placed itself on my waist. I looked at it and saw that it was an arm... It was hugging me.

And that arm was without an inch of doubt, a man's arm. It was long and muscular. Whoah... Wait, wait... What happened here?

I followed the arm and found my eyes widening involuntarily as I found myself staring at the half-naked glory of a man who was barely covered in sheets. 'Oh, shit...' I mentally cursed as I caught myself breathless just staring at him.

I seemed to have momentarily lost control of my eyes because they started staring unto his serene-looking face. His hair was long and disheveled. They were dark and shiny; almost tempted me to touch them and intertwine my fingers with each strand.

His eyes were closed but that didn't matter because I was allowed a close-up view of his long and cursive lashes. His nose was arrogant and straight. His lips were pinkish and slightly parted. I didn't know why but I found that very erotic.

He had stubbles growing on his chin but that didn't make him look dirty. Instead, by some completely unexplainable reason, I found them sexy. I stared at him for a full-minute, trying to soak in the image of his face.

I realized I didn't know his name.

That sudden thought made me jerk upward as I placed a hand on my temple while trying to collect my thoughts. It dawned on me that I was naked as the day I was born. And what's worse? It didn't take a genius to tell that I slept with him last night.

Gaining consciousness of the situation at hand, I finally realized three things:
One, I had a one-night stand.
Two, I had a one-night stand with a stranger.
Three, I had a one-night stand with a stranger who took away my virginity.

Oh, fuck.

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Just decided to post a random drabble I wrote directly upon sitting in front of my laptop. It's a good exercise for random scenarios that play in my head which demands to be put into words. I don't know. Maybe someday I can collect all these drabbles and weave them into an actual story. Who knows?

Updates...

Just posted Chapter Eight of Keeping the Casanova.
University Enrollment started today. I haven't enrolled yet. I'll try tomorrow.
Classes are about to start in a week or two.

That's about it. keke

regards,
shattered teardrops

The Crimson Insignia fanfic version trailer

2010-05-29T02:59:00.000+08:00

DISCLAIMER:
I do not own the videos/audios used in this fan-made vid. They belong to their respective copyrights owner.

NOTE:
This is the first trailer I've ever made so please forgive the crappy editing.

COMMENTS:
If you may notice, the actors I used on the trailer is different from the ones I stated on the previously released fanfic poster such as the one on winglin. This is because I had to change the actors to play the roles. Why? Well, because I couldn't find any suitable videos of the previous actors I chose. XP That is as much to say that I am off to change the pictures of the fanfic poster I previously released. keke

DETAILS:

Title: The Crimson Insignia
Author: Shattered Teardrops
Posted at: Winglin & Soompi Forums

Featuring:
Kim Jae Joong as Hara Shinichi/Fujiwara Shin
Lee Jun Ki as Ishiguro Ryou
Kamenashi Kazuya as Kuroda Akira
Tegoshi Yuya as Nakashima Taiki

Videos:
DBSK - O MV
Alice Nine - Shuunkashutou MV
Big Bang - Tell me Goodbye MV
DBSK Mini Drama (Vacation)
Gangster High Movie
Nobuta wo Produce Series
The Grace - Secret part 3 MV
Tegomasu - Kiss~Kaerimichi no Love Song MV
Yoyo Cop Girl
Crows Zero

Songs:
Crows Zero OST
Xiah Junsu - Kanashimi no Yukue (Instrumental)

What do you think? =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

School is just around the corner...

2010-05-25T06:30:00.000+08:00

Boohooo...

My University enrollment will be on June 1st and according to the news on television, tentative start of classes will be on June 14th. That's only a few weeks away and I'm already cringing at the thought of school.

You see, unlike those students who miss school when it's vacation time, I absolutely do not miss school. I miss my classmates, yes. I miss hanging out with them, yes. But I do not miss school. I do not miss assignments, projects, deadlines, lessons and crappy teachers.

So, what have I been up to these past few days?

One word: Exercise.
Yes, these past few days, I have been waking up at dawn, as alien as that may sound. I wake up at 5 in the morning to jog. I realized that I have been lazing out for the whole summer vacation and decided to push myself to go on an exercise for the remainder of it. I hope I lose some weight through this. *keeps fingers crossed*

Also, these past few weeks, I have been watching, ~~spazzing~~ over Prosecutor Princess. It was amazing to see actress Kim So Yeon portray an entirely different character than her character from Iris. She was a cold-blooded assassin from Iris and in here, she plays a naive, fashionista who is forced to be a prosecutor by her Father.

Amazing actress, really.

And not only that, she's also paired with another amazing ~~drool-worthy~~ actor who plays her love interest. Enter Park Shi Hoo who plays Atty. Seo In Woo.

BTS pics of the Shower Scene in Episode 10 of Prosecutor Princess

Seriously, he has that killer smile that I go gaga for. What can I say? Guys with killer smiles just always win me over. And to think that he's actually 13 years my senior! Gosh... Why do men I find hot always turn out to be either too old or too young for me???

Well, that's about it.

I'm going to work on Chapter 08 of Keeping the Casanova after this. =)

regards,
shatteredteardrops

TCI Chapter 31

2010-05-18T22:00:00.000+08:00

Chapter 31 of TCI: Passions Erupt

I do like the sound of the title. haha And I bet you guys would like the content a lot better. =) I rally like this chapter because it has a make-out session in it!!! Oh, yeah!!! XD

REPLIES:

__STEPHiiiEx3
"he's fallen for her, right?" - You mean Shin? Oh, yeah... He's fallen for her big time. XD

__cahaya
"wonder if shin gonna confess his feelings for miharu ...better do it fast shin before ryou take that opportunity" - I agree. But we'll see. =)
"wonder how on earth that he find out? did someone tell him or he knew all along about it ...wonder what he gonna do to shin? hopefully nothing's bad gonna happen to shin" - Relax. I'm not out to kill Shin yet. haha

__starlights
- Yeah, Shin has a lot on his plate. And all because of Miharu. Tsk, tsk... But he's okay so far, right? Thanks for the comment!

__pkv
"don't you know that shin
likes you and is totally jealous" - I'm imaging you as one of the characters in the story and you're actually telling this to Miharu. haha That thought cracked me up!

__teresaa-
"ahh shin, my mang, just confess your feelings already! D:
*sigh* miharu, is just.. >___>"
she should pick one already!!!!" - IT'S SO HARD TO PICK, DON'T YOU JUST HATE THAT?! XD

__dyang4
- Thank you for the comment. I find a jealous Shin hot. XD

__babsy10
"and man is he jealous..... miharu is so dense..." - I couldn't blame them. Shin's first priority is his job after all. And Miharu knows this so she couldn't simply assume anything untoward, right?

__simpleangel
"Go kick his ass Shin.
How dare you Ryou?! D:<
I wonder how the grandfather knows?" - It'll be revealed in Chapter 31. XD

__betty_7_30
- Everybody loves a jealous Shin, don't you agree? =)

__SwtAznStar18
-You've been added to the PM List! =)
"Well she's will end up having to choose someone for sure, I hope she chooses Shin. I guess I'm being bias, but he seems to need Miharu more than Ryou, he rarely opens up to anyone and now he does." - I agree but we'll just have to see who she ends up with, right? By the way, if I remember it right, you're also one of the readers of my other fic, right?

__nalouche
"OMG!!!!!!
I am TOTALLY in LOVE with Ryou!!!!
He's so cute!!!! besides he can't get his mind of off Miharu!!
And I have to admit that Shin is cute too!!!!
But for now I'm cheering for Ryou!!!!!
So Ryou, GAMBATTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" - Whew! We have a RYOU FAN RIGHT HERE!! haha Finally! Someone who appreciates Ryou more than Shin! XD

__TOPsarang
-You've been added the PM List! Thanks for reading!

__miss_dolly
"how does Saitou know Shin's not his grandson?! Uh oh..." - This will be answered in Chapter 31.

__curiousitykills
- Thank you! Welcome to the world of The Crimson Insiginia! Hoe you enjoy your stay! =) Thanks for reading and for the comment!

__pinkslippers
"But I must say this: I FRIGGING HATE RYOU.
I am a die-hard Shin-Miharu fan and how dare he enter Miharu's life again?!!!!" - Calm down! hehe Ryou is good for some tension. Besides, if you think about it, jealousy may cause Shin more good than harm, right?

__SHINEjaejoong
- It's okay that you can't comment on every Chapter. I understand that life can get hectic at times. But thank you for still reading, nonetheless. =)

TO EVERYONE,
Thank you so much for the continued support!

regards,
~~the nonviolent torturer~~,
shatteredteardrops

Some readers...

2010-05-17T01:06:00.000+08:00

Readers read my stories because they like it. And I appreciate that. REALLY.

But what I don't like are the kind of readers who demand as if they actually PAY fanfic Authors like me to update. This post may come off as harsh, but I really get offended and irritated with readers who say things like:

"Yah! Why did it take for you to update so long?"
"ya, what took you so long to update, been waiting for this forever"

I appreciate it that some readers like my story enough to actually be impatient about when the next update will be. I'm a reader, too, and I get impatient as well so I perfectly understand that.

But I have to remind you guys that I write fanfics for free. I do the planning, typing and even editing, all by myself. Although I'm not a professional writer, I do my best to provide quality fanfics for the readers. And this, I also do for free, because I love writing.

Second, I HAVE A LIFE outside of writing. If you don't understand that, let me spell it out for you. I am a full-time College student. I'm the eldest daughter in our family. I have responsibilities which are more important than writing. The little time I have left for myself is spent on writing hence, I can't update often.

If you like my story enough, you can show your appreciation through the following:
BE PATIENT and WAIT 'TIL I UPDATE.

DO NOT DEMAND OR USE A DEMANDING TONE ON ME BECAUSE THAT IRKS ME.

I would understand if you demand an update in a joking manner. And I don't mind that because it's nicely expressed and it comes off as a joke from a reader to the writer.

If you say, "Update soon!" I think this would be enough reminder to tell me that you guys are waiting. In fact, this is a common comment I've read in almost every comment/review on my stories. And I've been so used to this that I don't find it infuriating anymore.

Third, the first and foremost reason why I write, is for self-fulfillment, self-expression and as a creative outlet. As you can see, all these are self-centered reasons. I do not write for the number of readers. I do not write for recognition.

I write for myself.

As a writer, I think that readers being able to appreciate my writing is already a bonus for the craft that I love doing. And this only motivates me to work harder... But is not the main reason why I write.

I am not reader-centric. I do not aim to please readers. If I did, I would have updated everyday with crappy and unedited chapters just to satisfy the readers' demand for an update.

If you are a reader of mine and you read this, I hope you understand why I am so infuriated with readers who only demand without even knowing what the Author has gone through. I have been sick these past few days that's why I wasn't able to update soon.

I think that as an Author of the fanfiction story that readers' follow and read, I am entitled to a bit of consideration from the readers. I do this thing for free! I do not demand payment! The least you guys could do is thank me and wait patiently for my updates!

regards,
shatteredteardrops

I'm sick... T_T

2010-05-13T03:40:00.000+08:00

The reason why I haven't been updating in a while is because I'm sick. I have a freakin' flu which renders me sleepless every night due to breathing problems, and an effing sore throat which stops me from being able to drink cold beverages. It's the summer nowadays so you can imagine how much that irks me.

I would like to apologize to the people who are waiting for my updates. I'll try to get back to writing as soon as I recover.

As for people who take time to email/message me about updating, thank you for your concern but I will update on my own time and pace. Sadly, I have a life other than writing so you guys will just have to wait.

regards,
shatteredteardrops

2010 Elections

2010-05-10T21:09:00.001+08:00

Today was the first ever automated elections in the Philippines. Although, there have been several anomalies regarding the counting efficacy of the PCOS machines, the 2010 elections still pushed through.

Personally, I have my doubts.

And to be honest, I do think that the 2010 elections is nothing but a mere practice or trial with the use of PCOS machines. It's like a trial of an automated election. And to think that we have to suffer within the next six years if this election fails.

I'm not out here to voice out my complaints regarding the automated election or to place blame on the COMELEC or Smartmatic. However, I do intend to keep watch and see what happens.

The Philippines has long been struggling to rise out of poverty. And as any other election before, the 2010 elections is an event where the people of the Philippines hope to change the long-existing tyrannical government who are more for the people that run it than for the majority of the struggling Filipinos who voted for these people to be in position.

To be honest, corruption is already deeply-rooted within the culture of the Filipinos. Speaking as a Filipino myself, corruption will not easily be eliminated within the ranks of the government officials. However, I do keep a positive outlook on things.

All I need is one person to prove to me that he/she is aiming to uplift the Filipino than merely uplifting his/herself.

Created a Tumblr account today.

2010-05-07T03:59:00.000+08:00

Well, since I've already tried having a Xanga and Blogger account, why not try Tumblr as well?
I want to try and compare the blogging features of these three sites. I'm not out to hate or comment. I just want to try.

Tumblr seems to be setting new trends in the blogging community nowadays. I want to see why so I'll try. Other than that, it's also because I'm getting tired of this blog. I can't seem to decide how I want it to look.

keke Maybe I'm just getting a little to restless.

regards,
shatteredteardrops

TCI Updates...

2010-05-03T01:23:00.000+08:00

TCI Chapter 30: His Breaking Sanity

As you may notice, this Chapter has been cut into different parts. Mostly, I would describe this chapter as a rather emotional one. This highlights the conflicting emotions that Shin is undergoing. This also shows a bit of the development between Ryou and Miharu. I like stiffening the competition even just for a little bit. keke

REPLIES:

___cahaya - As always, thank you for the oh-so-detailed comment. XD I hope you don't get tired of waiting for updates of this story,

___simpleangel - I'm still stiffening the competition between Ryou and Shin. I mean, come on, what's a good love story without a complicated love triangle? XD

___betty_7_30 - Ehh? Are you on Ryou's side? haha Most of the readers vouch for Shin.

___disasterous_x - Thank you! Glad you like my story! You're sick? Tsk, tsk... Hope you get well soon! Nice to meet you to Aeriel, I'm Dia! XD

___pkv - Whoah... Wait a minute. Kill Ryou already? That would start a mafia war! (on facebook?) keke Nope, not yet... Shin is not yet out to kill the heir of their rival gang. Just a little test from ol' Ojii-sama. =)

___teresaa- - Yep, Ryou is sinister. If you recall on the first few chaps, Ryou was the smart wuss in Class 3-D who's part of the top ten within their year level. Oh, and of course, a jealous Shin is HOT. XD

___miss_dolly - A love-hate relationship? Yep, I think that's accurate enough to describe Miharu and Ryou's relationship. hehe

___nalouche - I love you, too! XDDD Ehh? You're on Ryou's side now? How about Shin? hehe Don't worry, Ryou won't give up on her that easily. I assure you that. =)

___Princess_Wincyy - Yes, Shin is killing. And of course, MY Taiki is as adorkable as always! XD

___leighannechan - Thank you! Glad you like my updates! Are they worth waiting for? hehe Yes, there are going to be more Miharu and Shin moments. Omo... Looks like you're a solid Shin and Miharu fan! Why don't you give Ryou a chance? Huh? Huh? Huh? Come on! *smiles*

___shushshuckspui - Yep, Shin's eyes is really blue, not mere contacts. hehe For now, Shin is going to continue posing as the heir. And, to clarify, Shin isn't part of the police. Technically, he's working undercover so yes, he can still be part of the gang. =) Hope that helped.

___mangoes_ - Ehh? You think he's going to make Shin kill Kenta? NO WAY! I've got future plans for Kenta! He hasn't proven himself capable of fighting yet! And he still doesn't have a love life! Why would I make Shin kill him??? keke

___cookielover - You've been added to the PM List! Good luck on guessing who's who! XD

_____cherry-apple-wine - hahahaha! That was funny! Can't believe you were fan-girling while Ryou was worried of his family jewels breaking! XD Seriously, it would be such a huge waste if he isn't able to bear children. Equation: looks + brains + hotness - reproductive means = WASTE!!! Agree? keke
"Taiki however is a petal of a different flower. Ha had to dress up like a girl? @__@" THIS. I would have to agree! Whenever I write, I notice that Taiki comes out every time my brain goes haywire or something... He's like the product of a topsy-turvy brain! haha
"Do I sense some jealousy in there? Yes, I believe my jealousy-radar is going crazy when I read that! Come on Shin! Succumb to the dark temptations within your heart! You know you want Miharu to be with you and ONLY with you! You want her for yourself! When are you going to realize and acknowledge that, when you’ve finally lost her?" Oh, Shin will realize that soon enough. keke And he's going to be forced to do something about it eventually. haha
"Love the end.
It’s just so, poetic for me. You know? I know I sound like a total psychopath right now but Im not! I swear! Im normal (alright maybe not that normal) but I am sane. It’s just that I imagined the grandfather saying it so nonchalantly like saying ‘the weather’s nice today’.
So cool I say!" I don't think you're weird. haha I love that line, too. It's like... Everything's peaceful and we're having this normal conversation and then, he just says, "Ok, it's time for you to kill." XD Great minds think alike, don't you think?
"How do I show how much I love this story? Does the review shows how much I enjoy reading it? Or should I like send you a separate message telling you how great this story is XD" You're showing enough love already! I'm grinning every time I read your comment! XD Thank you so much for the support! Although I know this story isn't like the mainstream flood of fanfics on Soompi, I'm happy that there are readers who like it! XD
"Oh and you wish you’re male? I swear, you’d get along perfectly with my best friend. I can just see it now ^^" Believe it or not, in real life, you wouldn't expect me to be the type to write romance stories. I'm that boyish. I've been wishing I was born a guy since I was young. Weird enough? keke My parents are even having doubts about my real sexuality. T_T I bet your bestfriend is also boyish, right? The type to be suspected of being a lesbian? keke

Thank you so much for the comments and the continued support everyone! I can't believe I'm on the 30th chapter now and it's been more than a year since I started posting this story on Soompi! Now, this makes me wonder when I'm ever going to finish this one. LOL.

P.S.
I started posting TCI on other sites as well.
I hope this story gets good reviews from those sites as well.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed. =)

regards,
the nonviolent torturer,
shattered teadrops

Summer Bumming___

2010-04-28T02:41:00.000+08:00

Okay, well, somehow but not exactly.

First update, my graphic site Sinful-Indulgence, is up and running again. So, for those who want to request for posters just click on the link, read the rules and go request right ahead. =)

Secondly, I'm going to update Chapter 06 of Keeping the Casanova. A bunch of nonsensical words written and composed to make sense together. I pulled a few hours worth of sitting down just to type this update, minus the fact that I was distracted by a lot of things (FB, Email, my graphic site, etc.). Anyway, it's written and I'ma post it after this. teehee

Third, I wrote a bonus chapter for KTC. It's actually a story about how Yoon Ji Hoo met the woman he was meant to be with. And I gotta tell you, all this typing is killing me. I seem to be bugged out of typing lately. Oh, wells. I still have to work on my stories so I guess I just have to stick it out for a while.

Fourth, my friend just got home from Singapore and she brought me some kimonos! Yay! But I won't be putting my hands on them until I see her which is... I don't know when. LOL. I'm planning to organize a beach outing for me and high school friends. Good luck to me, then.

After this, I'm going to type some more because I have to conjure up an update for The Crimson Insignia. I honestly adore that fic so I have to take care of it while I have time. =)

regards,
shattered teardrops

TCI Chapter 29!

2010-04-22T03:02:00.000+08:00

My character sketch of Fujiwara Shin.
I drew it a year ago and I'm no pro so forgive the crappy-ness.

TCI CHAPTER 29: "The Long Night"

Yes, this chapter is quite long. Yes, I intended it that way. Yes, more conflict. No, I don't want virtual tomatoes or whatever, thrown at me for giving some time for Miharu and Ryou. XD

REPLIES:

__cahaya
- "is she gonna accept him back into her life?"
This, well, maybe... Personally? I think she should. hehe Thank you so much for the detailed comment as always. XD

-"hmm who's pride ...is it akira or taiki or new character"
Who? Hmm... I won't tell you!

__babsy10
- "its quite daunting knowing shin is in a special mission... how did he know? is this person part of the game or it just happened...."
That's already a CLUE. The game is only known to Class 3D students, right? So how did Pride know? Go figure. =)

-"the chapter was named "closure" does that mean miharu finally able to forgive ryou and will she be able to fall in love with him again? or does it mean now she just felt pity for ryou???" I named it closure to mark the tied ends of what really happened between Ryou and Miharu two years ago. This doesn't really mean that she will fall in love with him again, but this chapter will sort of start the forgiving on Miharu's part for Ryou's shortcomings.

-"did you enjoy your holy week??? good luck on your OJT "
Yes, I enjoyed my Holy Week! You? hehe My OJT got cancelled the last minute because the Admin of our University didn't approve of our permit. So now, I've got the whole summer to laze out. haha

__betty_7_30
-"is pride giving wrong directions? o-o"
Nope. hehe

__pkv
-"so my guess on the computer guy was wrong, i assume, it wasn't the guy that shin is after but rather a hacker who has been helping them or maybe i'm just wrong about this whole thing..lol.."
Confused much? haha

__Princess_Wincyy
-"why's pride even helping shin?"
Pride is technically on Shin's side since he's been helping InDeCo to track down Azrael who was Shin's previous mission. However, just what is the reason for Pride's sudden contact of Shin remains unknown. =)

-"haha taiki needs to learn to drive first XD"
I would like to volunteer to teach him how to drive! haha But he's only a fictional character so... maybe I'll see him in my dreams!

__lilmisssmartey
-"did miharu finally forgive him ?"
I guess Chapter 28 is the start of Miharu's forgiveness. It takes time so at least, she's starting to understand Ryou's situation two years ago. She is starting to forgive him but not completely yet.

__teresaa-
- Thank you for reading both my fics! I get happy too easily so I was grinning like an idiot when I found recommendations for my story. haha

-"ST sounds soo damn cool and cute at the same time ahaha well at least he's nice to hand him the next clue plus. OMG IT'S PRIDEEEE OMFGGGG~ pride..,.but i still can't believe you left us with this cliffy."
ST actually stands for Shattered Teardrops, that's me. Fooled you? XD I'm weird like that, yo! haha I love cliffies! It's one of the things that keep the readers guessing and wanting more! XD I'm evil like that, yo!

__starlights
-Whoah... Thank you! Glad you read my stories! haha Actually, I have a DVD of Time Between a Dog and Wolf. I got it because Lee Jun Ki is hot. (fan girl, right here) I love complications in stories just because I'm evil. haha But seriously, conflicts make the story more interesting, that's what I think. =) You've been added to the PM List!

-"PS : I love your choice to name my fav character shinichi, he's kinda remind me of shinichi kudo.hhe. they quite alike, don't they?"
I'm a fan of Detective Conan!! Hence the Shinichi name of the character, if you must know. haha

__shushshuckspui
-Yep! Everything will be revealed real slowly. hehe It's slow but I hope it's worth reading 'til the very end.

____cherry-apple-wine
- First of all, when I saw your comment, I was grinning like an idiot in front of my laptop. haha

-"Miharu was overpowered even though we know that she has a killer punch and good reflexes. This just proves that boys are still stronger than girls (I hate them all the more for it) in this kind of situations."
Ugh... That's why I've been wishing I've been born a male. It's not that I hate being a girl. It's just... too complicated. haha

-"THE BIKE! YAYYNESS! I LIKE BIKES AND YOU KNOW HOT GUYS USING IT. IT’S JUST HOT MANN!"
What I tell you I've already tried driving a big bike? I'm only 5 foot 1 and yes, I can drive a big bike. haha And yes, I agree! Hot guys on big bikes are drool-worthy! (fan girl alert!)

-"I agree with her, I kind of pity him too because of everything he has to go through. How is he not in Oprah in the story? He should turn his life into a book, I’d buy it if I saw it in the bookstores."
Need I remind you that he's a fictional character? haha

-"BE thankful I imagined you as a hot dude Ryou or else I would’ve made crazy ass assumptions on the ideas inside your head and then this review would go on until forever."
Ryou is a HOT dude, too... Well, in my opinion, all of them are hot because I made them! They're mine! They're my characters! =D Yes, I do have a little bit of a God-complex going on... but that's only as a writer in my stories. keke

-"What kind of sandwich was it? Was it chocolate? I like chocolate sandwich but I also like cheesewhiz. It’s one of those super complicated sandwich that has veggies and mayo or cheese and some other things that I probably will never eat (like cucumber) mixed with meat isn’t it?"
My favorite filling in a sandwich is peanut-butter and grape jam mixed together! Oh, well, thinking about it, I eat just about any kind of sandwich. haha I never really thought of what kind of sandwich Ryou brought with him... LOL.

-"Was it weird that while Im reading that part I read it aloud in the best British accent that I can do? Anywayss, it was a really good part because Ryou gets to explain his dilemmas and such to Miharu."
I tried it it too! haha I guess it's because of Ryou referring to his Dad as 'Father'. I notice in most Brit films, they do call their Fathers like that.

-"What’s this? Does this mean that Miharu-chan doesn’t hate Ryou anymore? That everything’s good and dandy now? Or at least they’re about to be good and dandy? That cant be! My Shin’s going to be behind the competition now! And I have high hopes for him! He just had to move out didn’t he?"
It means Miharu is starting to understand Ryou. It can also be a start for forgiving him... keke I love competition. What's a good story without two hot rivals? LOL. Yeah, my fan girl side gets on an uncontrollable rampage sometimes. haha

-"Speaking about Shin, that’s good! He didn’t win the race but I believe that it’s really kinda realistic."
As much as I wanted Shin to win, yes, I would have to agree that it would have been really unrealistic. hehe A bit of realism in a fiction story doesn't hurt, right?

-"Taiki! Adorable kid! I want one because he’s the perfect baby brother material."
I was thinking of Mitsukuni Haninozuka from Ouran High School Host club when I brainstormed for Taiki's character. He's a loli-shota! keke And also, Yukinojo from Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge because he's adorable! I have a bit of that pedophilic side going on, too, so yeah. keke

-"Yes finally! That’s the name – Pride! I like that name and he came to save the day! Niiiice! I’m liking him more and more now~ Oh yeah, if you happen to not plan on killing Akira or getting him off with another girl then can I please please please have him? I dunno, weird thought but while Im typing now I just suddenly thought ‘hey I want Akira, who cares if he’s Pride or Azrael? I just hope he’s Pride.’ I’d marry the dude if he’s a real guy! We both like sleeping whenever and wherever. Isnt that cool?"
CLUE: PRIDE is the SEVENTH deadly sin. You can check it out at Wikipedia. hehe And who initially formed the band called, The Seventh Sin? It's also the same person who formed the group called The Sinners. *grin* Go figure.

-"Oh yeah and thanxx for your siggy! I found out about XLR8 and as Im typing this now Im listening to them. Coolio dude~! I just fell in love with a new group and I have you thank for it. Im actually making my friends listen to them as well, so far they like them cx You are so nice! AND THANK GOD! It was postponed (not that I don’t want you for the job practice thingy ma bobby)? That means you get to post more chappies faster! Yayyness!"
You're welcome! I'm a Graphics Designer for the official forums for XLR8 and I sort of jump-started the promotion for them. hehe Besides, those guys are really down-to-Earth and approachable! They even spend time chatting with their fans through their Forum's Chatango and even Facebook. Too bad they've got Antis too. Mostly Filipino Kpop fans who think they plagiarized something from Kpop. hehe
As for the OJT, I was a bit disappointed because I was supposed to have my OJT at the Senate. I was going to work for Senator Pangilinan but it got cancelled. No can do. hehe
Nope, your comments aren't too much! Definitely not! You remind me so much of a close friend of mine from high school. haha Thanks for the super long comment, the smile-inducing cracks and the fan-girling. At least I know I'm not the only one fan-girling for my story. keke

-I think Pride (who I believe is Akira) is the brother~ Have I mentioned that idea before? I thought of it while in the middle of reading it for the first time and then I forgot to mention it ever, I think c:"
Nope, you haven't but it's a possibility. hehe I'm not going to give in more than I should. I already gave a huge clue! XD Btw, thanks for showing the poster and teaser to your friend! Who knows? It might just tempt her to read! hehe

__pinkslippers
-"I bet Pride is Akira. Am I right?"
CLUE: Pride is the SEVENTH sin. Check Wikipedia. Who formed the band called The Seventh Sin, which was mentioned early in the story? The same person who created the group called The Sinners, to which Shin and Miharu now belong. Get the drift? *grin*

"And if it's not too rude for me to ask, will this 'challenge night' last beyond the next update?"
-The night of the challenges will only be up until Chapter 29. After that, I'll move on to the next twists in the story.=)

"P.S. I went to Super Junior's SS2 todaaaay. I just got home an hour or so ago. haha. Were you there too?"
- As much as I wanted to be there, I'm from a far-flung province. *sob* I'm from Visayas so yeah...

__nalouche
-"Who is Pride???? At first I thought it was the guy in their school who is always sleeping, Akira???"
CLUE: Pride is the SEVENTH sin. Check Wikipedia. Who formed the band called The Seventh Sin, which was mentioned early in the story?

__miss_dolly
-"after the confession, is she going to go back to ryou?!"
Is she? I don't think so... She still hasn't completely forgiven him yet.

__dyang4
-I like Shin too! But I have to build up more conflicts in the story, you know? Ryou just happens to be one of the hot conflicts who should be included. hehe Thanks for reading!

__mangoes_
-"akira disappeared right ? so does that mean he could be Pride?"
CLUE: PRIDE is the SEVENTH deadly sin. You can check it out at Wikipedia. hehe And who initially formed the band called, The Seventh Sin? It's also the same person who formed the group called The Sinners.

__reddynamitez
-"Pride eh? another player in the game."
Actually, Pride of more of a... Game Master than a player. keke

-"I'm still waiting for Azrael to show up. or maybe he did already... ah this is frying my brain."
Azrael has already showed up. keke That's already another hint! hehe Aww... I don't mean to fry your brain. That's Kuya Hiro's job, the writer of Fists and Lipsticks 1 & 2, plus Vena Cava. I'm only here to nonviolently torture people. *grin*

-"I feel bad for Shin. He's playing the game separately from Miharu and Ryou. Worse, he had to babysit Taiki whose onto him. "
You know what's funny? I don't feel bad for Shin at all. I just find Taiki hella amusing! kekeke

-"p.s I like reading ur personal replies."
I like reading comments and replying to them as well! =)

__endlessdeath
-Hope you can catch up! hehe Btw, still busy? When are you going to update your stories, woman?! And when are you going to post another NG fanfic? keke Sorry... I've been on hunt for quality stories but it's to no avail.

__leighannechan
-Thank you so much for reading! You've been added to the PM List! =D

*pants* *pants* *pants*
I didn't think typing personal replies would take at least an hour.
But I'm not complaining! I love hearing from you guys!
Thank you so much for the support, guys! =D

As a thank you, I'm going to show you another drawing of mine!
It's a Fan Art actually.
I drew it last 2006 or 2007. I don't really remember. LOL.

Daisuke Niwa from D.N.Angel.

Pardon the crappy image.
I didn't scan it. I only used my camphone and took a pic of it.

I'm off to post Chapter 29!

regards,
~~the nonviolent torturer~~,
shattered teardrops

Ani-Con!

2010-04-20T00:54:00.000+08:00

Yatta!

Hohum... Okay, so last April 17, that's last Saturday, I had the chance of attending an Anime Convention by United Arts Society. The best part of the Con? *grin* COSPLAY!!! No doubt!

I've got pictures of me and my friends with different cosplayers but meh... I'm too lazy to put them up. haha But it was really fun! I hadn't had much fun in a while since summer started. It was a pleasantly welcomed break from my monotonous couch-potato lifestyle.

One of the significant effects of this event?

It re-ignited my love for Anime!

So, now, I've been frequenting Anilinkz to watch Anime online. keke

I know, I know... This means less time to write and actually post an update. No worries. I haven't forgotten my responsibilities to my readers. I'll try to update tomorrow or within the next few days. Definitely within in this week. Okies? =)

PS. A batch of Fiction Finds are on the way! I've had enough free time to drown myself in fiction stories at FictionPress.com and Fanfiction.net. I'll try to share some of the stories I've read!

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Excerpt from an upcoming Original Rom-Com...

2010-04-12T04:13:00.001+08:00

Credits to senyikaede
@deviantart for picture

Title: N/A (I'm not sure what to name it yet.)
Date Started: April 10,2010
Target Number of Chapters: 17 (Prologue+15Chapters+Epilogue)
Genre: Romance, Humor, Drama
Characters: Park Ji-Wan, Park Hye-Jin, Min Hae-Joong, etc.

Excerpt:

“For me, love is a like a chocolate avalanche.”

Chocolate because it’s pleasantly sweet and overwhelming,
Avalanche because it just suddenly engulfs you without warning.

Quite a unique yet most definitely appropriate description of love, don’t you think?

To be honest, this plot idea has been in my mind since 2008. I've actually written a few chapters in advance and kept it in my drafts. But recently, since I have much free time in my hands, I read it again and decided to revise it.

This time, I'm planning to write it in an unconventional format and writing style. I'm going to divide the story into Three Phases namely: I- The Turning Point, II- The Past, III-The Present. Each phase will have five chapters, adding up into a total of fifteen chapters.

This is going to be a light read, unlike TCI and KTC that's both full-length novels. Chapters aren't going to be so long and the whole story will be written in first person POV.

The main protagonist is Park Hye Jin, a twenty-four year old virgin.

I don't know if this plot is cliche but I still want to try writing it out somehow. I've already written the Prologue and the first two chapters of Phase I, but I won't be posting it yet, because I might be pressured to update and I still have three unfinished stories.

Oh, and yeah, I still don't have a title for it. haha I'm thinking of naming it "Chocolate Avalanche" but I don't know... It just sounds too Rom-Com to me. I'm going to brainstorm for the title in the next few days. =)

By the way, I'm thinking of abandoning my story entitled Ignominy. I don't know. I just don't have the heart to finish it anymore. It's saddening, really, but it's been so long, and I don't know if I can still finish it. It's still posted at Winglin and Soompi, but it's been more than six months since its last update. So yeah...

Hm.

Yeah, that's about it.

regards,
shattered teardrops

TCI Chapter 28 + Author Spazz~

2010-04-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

TCI Chapter 28: "Closure"

The title signifies a closure for Ryou and Miharu. After writing this Chapter, I just don't know what to do about the tangled love triangle anymore. I mean, I'm a bit confused. I think I just made everything a lot more confusing than it already is. haha Silly me, right?

REPLIES:

cahaya - As usual, thank you for such a detailed description of everything you liked in the chapter! Thank you for reading! =)

reddynamitez - A lot more mysteries left unsolved, right? keke Everything will fall into place at the end. I'm just building things quite slowly.

1shinhwa - Which part is confusing? If you've got questions or clarifications, I don't mind answering them. =)

lilmisssmartey - Miharu and Ryou's past will be expounded in this Chapter. I hope it answered some of your questions. hehe

simpleangel - Taiki is up to something? Hmm... Maybe? haha But I honestly kind of treat him as a baby because he's the comic relief.

dyang4 - And likewise, thank you for reading and the comment!

Princess_Wincyy - Congratulations for owning the page! XD It's easy to say let her go already but I think, if you begin to understand why Ryou was acting that way, you'd see that he's in no position to just let go. =)

pkv - "and that guy with the computer that's the guy that shin is after right?" Maybe. Maybe not. =) You'll find out soon enough. hehe

nalouche -Thank you! Glad you liked it!

JJKA - Thank you. You know, as a reader, I'm just like you. More often than not, I'm a silent reader. But as an Author, that's an entirely different story. I try my best to give something of quality to the readers because as a reader myself, I know how hard it is to find a good read. Thank you for reading and for the comment. I hope you didn't fail your midterms!

__cherry-apple-wine - Scheming is a big part of this story, so yeah. haha Thank you for so much for taking time to write such detailed comment. Your comments really hype me up and bring a smile to my face. Not many readers comment like you, so yeah. They often just say, 'Great Chapter! Update soon!' And I'm like 'Meh'. I want to know what you guys feel about everything so I love detailed comments. =) "I think Akira's the one. Not Azrael kind of 'the one' though, just the computer expert dude whose name I totally forgot." - THIS. We'll see in a few more chapters. keke "Hey it's summer holidays in the Philippines right? That means you'll have more time to update right??" Yep, it is summer here. I was stressing about how to update since we were supposed to have our on-the-job-training this summer, but it got cancelled and postponed for next semester, so now, I'm free! =)

miss_dolly - Thank you for reading and for the comment!

teresaa- - Thank you! You've been added to the PM List already! Thanks for reading! Btw, I remember, you're also a reader of my other story, right? The SoEul fanfic I was writing?

sprinklez_123 - It's been a long time since I started this and I don't update quite often so it's understandable to forget a few things from the past chapters. hehe You could ask questions to clarify some things if you like. It's actually "Taiga" but the truth is, it means "Tiger". In the Japanese pronunciation, they say it as "Taiga". Clear enough? =)

check; JULIET - That's another angle to the heritage of Miharu. Her brother will surface anytime soon. Er... Well, actually, he has already surfaced but it's still not known that he is in fact, Miharu's brother.

whiteyin - Thank you for reading! I love reading stories that make you think too! Although sometimes, it's a bit confusing. hehe But then, I think, in the end, everything will fall into place.

betty_7_30 - You've been added to the PM List! Thanks for reading!

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Author's Spazz!

I've always been very vocal about how shallow I can be when it comes to things that make me happy. Simple things can lift up my mood in a matter of seconds. And I confess that one of my dreams as an Author would be, for one of my stories to grace the Recommendations Thread on Soompi Forums.

=)

I got two recommendations for my story "in a Heartbeat"! This really made my day so I sped up my update for TCI. Thank you so much!

regards,
~~the non-violent torturer~~,
shattered teardrops

Videos from the Tube

2010-04-08T01:58:00.000+08:00

Tae Yang's Wedding Dress English Cover by Jreyez & Tommy C.

So, I was browsing through youtube earlier tonight. And I found a few very noteworthy videos of youtube artists that are really nice. Okay, so maybe 'nice' is an understatement. I really like 'em!

The video above is an english cover of Big Bang's Tae Yang's single entitled Wedding Dress. I've always wanted to sing that song but I'm not korean and I probably would sound like I'm singing something gibberish if ever I do sing it.

This cover gave me a chance to sing along with it. Plus, it has an mp3 download link! So, of course, I downloaded and it's been on repeat for a week now. Yes, that's how much I love their cover. Tommy C's voice sounds a lot like Tae Yang and I can just imagine Tae Yang singing it. I swear!

One Hundred Roses - Original song by Kim Sooyoon of Royal Pirates
I've always been a fan of acoustic songs with the guitar and all. I even play guitar myself and yes, I compose songs too, but I never had the equipment nor the time to record and put them up for the world to see. hehe

Anyways, this is like one of the sweetest songs I've ever come across. The beat is catchy, the lyrics make me feel mushy like goo, and please, don't get me started on the singer. Kim SooYoon is only 21 years old but he's a sweetie pie! By the way, he also plays the drum and is actually, the official drummer of his unsigned band, The Royal Pirates, which brings me to my next video!

SNSD's Tell Me Your Wish Rock Cover

THIS is <3! I mean, whoah... I never imagined an SNSD song to have a rock version, and this just blew me away. Literally. It's perfect! Amazing how these guys can whip up something cutesy and girlie to something heavy and rocking!

Just... WOW.

I'm thinking maybe I should spend more time on youtube. The site has a lot of amazing videos and people to offer. haha

If you guys have time, do check out the following youtube artists:
happyslip, kevjumba, gabebondoc, ilajil, timothydelaghetto, NigaHiga.

I've been watching their videos for sometime now and I think they're really great! Some of them are hilarious and the others are just plain virtuosos. I highly recommend them! Two thumbs up!

regards,
shatteredteardrops

[Drabble + Daragon] A Secret...

2010-04-06T02:11:00.000+08:00

I saw her singing by the center stage and could not help but be awed. She was sweating, panting profusely even, but she was smiling. The kind of smile that reflected how much she enjoyed performing; although personally, to me, her smiles bring nothing but enchantment and awe.

The claps of the appreciative audiences drowned my heartbeat, and yet, it was there; my heartbeat. The sudden gushing of emotions towards my chest, that sudden rush as if I was being chased and running for my dear life, that was how my heart went in rage. It was in secret, no one knew but me. Yet it was there.

As the lights fade and the music suddenly disappear into a low hum, our eyes met. And suddenly, there was just me and her. She smiled. I grinned. Within the dim confines of the back stage, our eyes locked. It was in secret. No one knew. Yet it happened. And it meant much more to me than I would have openly admitted.

I extended my hand for a handshake. She took it with a smile and bowed politely. I was still grinning, ear to ear, happiness overflowing. Did she know? That I was this happy every time I saw her? Did she know? That she was the reason for the sudden convulsion inside my chest followed closely by the unexplainable butterflies in my stomach?

Hmm... I wonder if she knew... Because this, again, was a secret. No one knew. Yet, it existed.

I opened my mouth to say something... Anything! Just to prolong whatever contact between us... Yet I was dumbfounded. What was I to say? Should I say, 'great performance'? Maybe 'congratulations'? A mere greeting? That won't be enough.

She broke eye contact and slowly retrieved her hand to end the handshake. 'No!' My mind screamed. I allowed myself a bit of liberty and allowed my hand to linger a bit longer with hers. She looked at me with a puzzled expression on her face as if asking 'What's wrong?'.

I grinned sheepishly.

The whole backstage was still in chaos. The other 2NE1 girls were still smiling, shaking hands and bowing with the other people at the backstage. Yet, there we were; she and me. We remained unnoticed amidst the ruckus.

"Sandara Park..." I uttered with a smile. Yes, I didn't call her 'Noona'. I never wanted to be her younger brother anyway.

I closed the gap between us to whisper into her ear. "Wanna know a secret?"

She looked confused and unsure. I never knew what was running inside her mind at that very moment. She could be thinking about a million of different things that I would never know about...

But this, I know for sure... and I grinned at her.

"I love you..."

It was a secret. No one knew. Just she and me. But it's true and it happened.

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Ahhh... It's so nice to write a drabble every once in a while. My current fics are all written in third POV so this was a pleasantly welcomed break.

Actually, I'm going to be busy within the next few days even though it's summer here in the Philippines because it's my last year in my pre-Law course in College and this requires more effort at school. Plus the on-the -job-training that I was talking about in my previous posts has to be taken cared of.

I don't know when I'll have enough time to sit down and actually write a decent update for my current fics. To be honest, I've been finding myself exhausted towards writing. I mean, I get ideas but I just can't seem to concentrate.

Truth is, I've started writing the draft for the new chapters of TCI and KTC, but I haven't reached my minimum word count quota yet. Yes, I set a word count quota for myself and that quota is a minimum of 3000 words per chapter. This is to make sure that the readers get enough 'juice' from each chapter of my story.

Updates?

Lemme see...

Went to the Mall today.

I went to the mall today and met up with a classmate regarding our OJT. We talked briefly and then she left. I was left alone but I actually enjoyed my time alone being at the mall. Why? Because I was allowed to spend as much time as I like inside Book Sale! Yay! (Kinda brings out the inner geek in me, don't you think?)

I bought a book.

I bought a book entitled, "What If? Writing Exercises for Fiction Writers" by Anne Bernays and Pamela Painter. It's an old book and I bought it for only 86.00 Php! So cheap!

I started reading its introduction and stuff, and I think, I might just get something out of it. Teehee... It's nice to learn from pros. I mean, yeah, sure, I'm still hoping for a chance to get a work of mine published someday. A girl can dream, right? =)

Enrollment tomorrow.

By the way, I have to mention that being Seniors in College for the upcoming school year, our enrollment is just around the corner, plus, our OJT. Hn. Can't I have a break?! So, yeah, it means more busy time for me and less time for writing.

Thinking of changing my pseudonym.

It entered my mind that maybe, I needed to change shatteredteardrops into a more sophisticated and updated version of a pseudonym. Mind you, shatteredteardrops was my pseudonym since last 2004. You can verify it at my Fanfiction.net account. That was eons ago. I was a crappy writer then. Not that I'm not crappy now but, I think I've improved a lot since then.

I was thinking of changing it into a proper name, one with a first and last name, but I'm still torn about it. After all, I was known as shatteredteardrops for the last six years of my fanfiction writing life. And my accounts were all registered under shatteredteardrops or shattered_teardrops. It would be a waste if I suddenly overhauled everything, right?

Hm. I rant a lot.

Ciao.

regards,
shatteredteardrops

Accelerate for Music!

2010-04-02T02:35:00.000+08:00

A.FM for short. ^_^

This is what fans of the P-Pop Group XLR8 call themselves and yes, I am proud to be an A.FM!

XLR8 is a boy group signed under Viva Entertainments, composed of 8 members. They debuted only last March 2010 and has released their first self-titled album called 'XLR8' with the carrier single You're so Hot.

Here are the individual member profiles as released by Viva.

ADRIAN MUHLACH

Weight : 136lbs.
Height : 5'7
Shoe Size : 9 1/2 or 10
Shirt Size : Medium

Boasting hot looks and exceptional acting talent, Adrian comes from the family that brought us Aga Muhlach. Yes, because he is Aga’s younger brother.
Adrian, as an actor in training join in the newest boy group from Viva, XLR8. He is one of the boys that will leave us amazed after each performance as they exhibit the ultimate teen singing and dancing power.
Aside from singing, dancing and acting Adrian or AJ knows how to play the drums and guitars very well.
He also appeared in commercials like Poten Cee Vitamin C and Mama Sita BBQ Marinade Commercial, our talented hottie also dreamed of leading on a movie and get to work with his brother in a film someday—a dream he’s not so far from realizing.

ARKIN DEL ROSARIO

Height: 5’7’’
Weight: 130 lbs.
Shirt: size S to M
Shoes: 9 1/2

Arkin may have been the youngest in the group yet he doesn’t fail to give a ray of sunshine to every conundrum XLR8 faces along their way to stardom.

At 11, he discovered that he has good singing talent, as a matter of fact he would appear regularly on professional stage plays like Florante at Laura, El Filibusterismo and Ibong Adarna among others showcasing this to awed audience. One of them would be Geleen Eugenio who would eventually introduced Arkin to Viva.

This optimist and joyous lad believe that when people point out your weaknesses and makes fun of you, it’s an opportunity for you to rise above.

CALEB SANTOS

Height: 5’10’’
Weight: 132 lbs.
Shoe size: 11
Shirt: Medium

In every group, there always exist a guy who always lead the prayers, the one who gives hope to every struggling moment and believes that The fear of The Lord is the beginning of wisdom—in XLR8, it’s no other than the humble and truly inspirational, Caleb Santos.

Caleb discovered his musical talent at a young age and apparently been enhanced by joining church choirs and school bands dedicating his passion to the Lord. Aside from singing, we can also count on him when it comes to dancing and playing the guitars and drums—it’s something so admirable about this guy who can also leave you swooning for his killer looks.

A big fan of K-pop, Caleb believes that Filipinos can also rock hard and inspire the whole world. XLR8 is focused to give power-packed entertainment and inspiration and Caleb will definitely justify to that Filipino talent.

CARLO LAZERNA

Height: 5’9’’
Weight: 140 lbs.
Shirt: size Small
Shoes: 11 ½

Carlo has the creative mind who thought of naming his group XLR8. As a guy who believes that the best blaze burns the brightest when circumstances are at their worst, his creativity shines on their performance.

A pizza enthusiast, Carlo started loving singing at age 13 and would eventually appear at dance recitals and later on in Master Showman at GMA7. His musical influences include the King of Pop, Michael Jackson who he idolizes so much for creating a revolution in the music scene. He also is tremendously influenced by K-pop, J-pop and Anime Songs that he loves listening to as it gives him inspiration to conceptualize their own P-pop style.

FRANCIS RAMOS
a.k.a. Kiko

Height: 5’7’’
Weight: 145 lbs.
Shirt: Small to Large
Shoes: 10

Francis Albert Ramos or simply Kiko just used to love dance competitions on TV, he didn’t know that this enthusiasm would lead him to showcase his own style and dancing power. The boy who loved every challenging episodes of America’s Best Dance Crew and So You Think You Can Dance can also be dubbed as the hyper lad in Viva’s prided boy group, XLR8.

Not only can he dance, this boy contributes a very energetic voice to harmonize with the rest of the boys and create such enigmatic energy in their performances. Belives in “No Pain, No Gain” mantra, Kiko would definitely give his best shot for the improvement of their group. We know that he will pull it off because of his natural love to music and dancing.

HIDEAKI TORIO
a.k.a. Aki

Height: 5’7’’
Weight: 140 lbs.
Shoe size: 9
Shirt size: Small to Medium

Hideaki has appeared in GMA shows like SIS, SOP, Sweetlife but he’s most commonly known as the Japanese singing hottie that loves to make witty and cute commnets with Master Showman, Kuya Germs in his longest running show Walang Tulugan.

As a struggling Japanese lad that made his way to the Philippine industry, did you know that he loves to study English and Filipino—his interest at par with playing guitars. Dubbed as the ‘pinakamakulit’ in the group, Hideaki or Aki didn’t find it hard to mingle with the boys inspite of the language barrier.

A big fan of Westlife, this guy is a walking package—he loves to dance and indeed an asset to XLR8. Believes that time is really gold, he also revels in the knowledge that there still are lots of honest and friendly people everywhere.

MELJOHN MAGNO
a.k.a. MJ

Height: 5’7.5’’
Weight: 120 lbs.
Shirt: size extra small
Shoes: 9

Meljohn or MJ is one of the Magno twins who definitely deserves the right to be in Viva’s newest boy group, XLR8.

At a very young age of 16, MJ know that he loves singing and performing in front of many people. Together with his twin MM, they usually perform in special family occasions to the amazement of their relatives and later on would take voice lessons to improve their craft.

His lokks can be widely associated with Korean manner but this 19 year old hottie love exhibiting his own style—as a matter of fact, aside from playing numerous musical instruments like drums, organ and guitars we can consider him an ace in composing new songs.

He has appeared in GMA shows like Sis, Walang Tulugan and All-Star K. Watch him rock the stage with the boys as he know how o give the best shot for this opportunity and he knows how to make good use of it.

MELMAR MAGNO
a.k.a. MM

His looks can be truly identical to his twin, MJ. Although they both made it to XLR8, MJ got his very own style to boast.

An optimist that loves dancing and playing musical instruments, MM has appeared into various celebrated shows like ASAP ’09, Wowowee, Tayong Dalawa, SIS, Master Showman, All Star K and The Buzz. A self-confessed showbiz addict, this guy got the looks and wit to make it to the business.

Started singing at the age 6, he was a veteran joining school competition that helps him improve his trade. Together with the rest of the boys, MM will make you swoon and want for more in every powerful performance.

source: viva.com.ph
credit: XLR8PH Forums

Now, what I like about this group other than their stunning looks and talent is that they are also very humble, approachable and friendly. They freely interact with their fans and they're very down to Earth.

I, for one, have experienced chatting with Francis 'Kiko' Ramos on the Chatango of their Official Forum. They also frequently interact with fans on Facebook whenever they had time. They personally reply to questions and even leave comments on their fans' photos of them. They even goof around with their fans using the JEJEMON Language as they called it.

For a fan like me, it's a rare opportunity to be able to interact with idols. And since I don't reside in Manila, I appreciate the fact that the XLR8 boys use the internet to be closer to their fans. Now, you might say that the ones using Facebook could be mere posers but, I tell you, it's REALLY them.

They take time off their busy schedules to update fans about what they're currently doing. Adrian Muhlach even informed his fans that he wouldn't be able to reply to their messages on his Facebook page because he will be spending some time in Batangas with his family for the Holy Week.

I think, for us fans, it is things like this that really mean a lot to us because we feel as if we've grown closer to our idols and that, we feel as if, they're not just our idol, they're our friends as well. Other than being a performer and an idol, these things make us see that they're also people and that, fans can easily approach them and befriend them.

Personally, I find these boys adorable and I really hope that they do good in the industry. I'm hoping for more projects for them and although, I see a lot of bashers, I hope that they still come out strong and show the world what they've got.

XLR8 FTW! =)

Shattered Teardrops

Protect IP; No to SOPA

Late Post but...

Thank you for waiting~

Hey everyone...

Yes, I've been MIA for a month

Hello!

Yet another JunAh one-shot

Another JunHyung&HyunAh one-shot

Newly Wed

The Queen and the Joker

Still Alive...

Severing the Strings of Forever

Healthy Jealousy

Busy~

The Quiescent Kind

Last Week of Summer

A Shock

New Twitter Avatar!

TAGGED!!!

To The Readers of...

Love and Lust

Will be AFK for two weeks..

Mending What's Broken

Future Plans

Good and Bad

Hot, Cold and Lukewarm

Whoever you are...

The Long Awaited

Mobile Blogging Trial Post

Edit and Fix

Oopsie Daisies~

Fans and Idols (a one-shot)

I Lost Ranmaru.. TT_TT

ANNOUNCEMENT: INDEFINITE HIATUS

The Year 2010

Happy Holidays, Everyone!

Busy as hell

Just Started my OJT

Forgiveness and Developments

The Readers

The Angel of Death

I'ma make it public now

[Book Review] Loving Will Shakespeare

It's Bloody 3AM

My Tinypic Account has been banned

I Want Some Break

Academic Stuff

Art of Lip Locking PDF File version 01

DRABBLE #02

Art of Lip Locking PDF File Coming Soon!

Whoopie! KTC Update!

Whoah!!

Impending Face-Off...

My Schedule

A Beginning and an End...

[Book Review] It's Not You, It's Me

TCI Chapter 33: Tension

I'm sorry!

I'll update later!

Hectic Week

Blogging...

Work + Claim + Formspring Anons!

It's the weekend!

Formspring me! + TCI Chapter 32

As a Graphics Designer and Writer...

Depression and Withdrawal...

DRABBLE #01

The Crimson Insignia *fanfic version trailer*

School is just around the corner...

TCI Chapter 31

Some readers...

I'm sick... T_T

2010 Elections

Created a Tumblr account today.

TCI Updates...

Summer Bumming___

TCI Chapter 29!

Ani-Con!

Excerpt from an upcoming Original Rom-Com...

The Crimson Insignia fanfic version trailer